I can't say it but I love you

#6 ARE WE STILL FRIENDS?

YOONGI

That same day, we film with Halsey as we practice our shared stage for the BBMAs. She's super sweet and even gifts us each a bracelet as a token of our friendship. Although the language barrier exists, Halsey and I had a great time talking to each other about music and she even mentioned a possible collab on one of her songs. It felt refreshing meeting a new face after only being allowed to meet certain people.
After dancing for 2 hours, we say our goodbyes and rush to the showers in the locker rooms. We have 30 minutes to get to the interview spot if we want to rest for an hour and rest is better than sex for idols.
All of our hair is wet when we enter the vans to leave but we don't care and fall asleep on the ride.
Luckily, I was one of the first ones to shower so my hair is half dry. However, all seven of us had to be crammed into one van which didn't allow for a lot of sleeping room. Of course, I got stuck between Jungkook and RM, the two members who don't know what personal space is when sleeping.
My eyes flutter open and close as I try to sleep while Namjoon snores on my shoulder. It's soft but it's annoying enough to keep me awake.
I decide to plug in my earbuds to hopefully cease my tiredness.
I randomly shuffle my playlist, and sit and stare into nothingness while a song starts to play.
While my ears are occupied, my vision rested to look straight forward where Jimin conveniently sat staring at his phone. He held it as if he was texting someone and then fell asleep mid conversation. His eyes were slightly closed but his arms stayed up which meant he was awake.
I tilt my head to the side and study his face a bit more. His head was slightly down which made it harder to see him. However his cute pouty cheeks were prominent even though he was so skinny. His eyelashes were long and his pink hair really complimented him in a way it wouldn't compliment anyone else.
I was noticing how porcelain his skin was until his eyes suddenly opened and I had to quickly advert my gaze. Our eyes met for like half a second before I could react and I could now feel his stare burning into me.
I feel a small kick on my leg, it's Jimin's foot. I look up and mouth 'What?'
He mouths something but I don't understand what he says. He whispers it but I still can't hear him.
He gives up and starts typing something on his phone.
I receive a message:

What are you listening to?

He asks. I look up at him but he doesn't look back. He's staring at his phone, waiting for a reply. I decide to play around a little bit.

It's a pretty unpopular song so you might not know it

Try me

It's called Run
  It's by a group you've probably never heard of

Hmmm lemme take a guess...
Is it by a group called BTS?

Omg...how'd you know?

Lucky guess?
I've heard of them a little bit
I think they're kinda cool
Especially that one member
I think his name is Suga?

I look up from my phone with a visible smile and he meets my eyes this time.

Oh yeah?
What makes him so cool?

Hmm just everything
He's so good looking
And he's a good rapper
He can also dance
He could work on his singing though

I let out a little chuckle at his last statement. He then starts to send picture after picture of me from the internet.

He's my favorite member
I wish I could see him right now

I feel my cheeks warm up at the funny compliments. Reading his last text, I decide to snap a quick selfie of myself. I hold up a peace sign and smile slightly. In the photo, a bit of Jungkook's hair is cut off on the side and it's then I remember that the other members weee in this van too. I send the picture to Jimin. I look up and see his face in his phone with a huge smile on his face as the photo delivers.

Woah, he's so good looking
And his lips
They look so kissable and cute

My thumbs hover over the keypad. I could take this in two directions. The words on the screen stare back at me as if they're asking for permission to be let in. It wouldn't hurt to play a little bit. It would hurt more to shut him down. 

Maybe you don't just have to stare

I gulp after pressing send. I don't know what led me to text that, I know it was fucking risky. I try to put down the conversation but I feel a buzz again and instantly open my phone.

I think I would like that

My hands are frozen at the keyboard. I'm fucking pale so I know my face and ears look like a tomato right now. The text bubble waits for my response but I don't have one. I can feel my chest tighten and I've already forgotten that I've been listening to music. A minute has passed since Jimin sent his text but my mind still tries to sort through what is appropriate to say.
I can feel Jimin's gaze on me once again and I tilt my head to the side and rub my neck.

Maybe...

This is wrong, this is all wrong, I told myself. It all escalated too quickly. I closed my phone and my eyes to let it all wash away. My heartbeat continued to thump louder than the music playing my ears.
I'm so fucking tired, I whisper to myself. It's the only logical explanation I can make for allowing myself to fall even ankle deep into this conversation.

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