My Sweet🖤My Love

you cant keep doing this

A/N this is after finding out about prom.
TW: SH with blood and Emetiphobia?

Autumn walked to the car park with her bat passing sorscha and her wife and going straight to her fathers car.

Marjorie texted winter telling him to rush over saying Autumn needs him.

He tried to get into some clothes without almost being sick and done the same when he got into his car.

Once he arrived he struggled to walk without wanting to throw up, he passed by sorscha.

"Where's my love, where is my sweet?!" He said struggling.

"She's out in the car park turning her dad's car into scrap." She said to him.

"Oh that's my girl, I'm coming my darling! I'm coming!" He said walking off and into the car park.

Once he walked into the car park he seen autumn's dad on the floor holding his jaw on all fours whilst autumn battered his car multiple times till the glass was going into her hands making them bleed all over the bat.

He walked closer and seen her tears streaming down her face and blood all over her bat from her hands.

"Oh darling.." He said to himself walking over.

After a short while and the car beeping constantly bcs of her hitting hit she stopped and froze dropping the bat with anger and turned around to face her father.

"MY SWEET" Winter shouted from a distance to get her attention so she'd run over.

Once she heard him she grabbed her bat and went running over crying. Winter took her in his arms and they fell to the floor in a tight embrace. Her sobs went through his hoodie as he tried to comfort her without almost being sick.

"I wanna go home.." She said looking at him.

"Yea we can go home its no problem." Winter smiled and lifted her up and taking her bat from her to carry as they walked to the car.

All the way through the drive was silent and autumn just stared out the window, she took her hair out her pont tail and let her hair fall down to cover most her face.

Winter looked at her and stroked her thigh gently

"How about when we get home we get into our pyjamas and dance to some Elvis Presley?" He said smiling.

"But we've got food poisoning.." She said sounding numb.

"We're feeling alot better tho arnt we?" He said.

Autumn shrugged, "I just want some time to myself for abit..."

"Oh ok.." He said sounding disappointed.

Autumn could tell he was disappointed but she didn't want to say anything more she was too upset after the day.
Once they got home autumn went straight to their room and closed the door. Winter stayed downstairs to give her space and put the record player on and played elvis presley just for incase she does come down.
Whilst she was upstairs she looked at thighs seeing the blood dripping as she put the paper towels on them, she sat on the toilet in their onsuite upset with everything.
Why did her dad do this? Why can't she just be happy for once?

Winter knocked on the onsuite door.
"My love? You okay in there?"

Autumn jumped abit from his presents making her knock her blade onto the floor making a quiet noise.

"Darling?" He said waiting for an answer.
Autumn kept panicking on where to put the blade before she dropped it in the bin bcs it'd be for the better. She covered her legs up after the blood stopped and she pretending to have been using the toilet so she flushed it and washed her hands.
Once she came out the bathroom, winter noticed she was shaking abit. But didn't let his mind assume things till he watched her limp to the stairs. They got to the living room and sat on the sofa together..winter went to go stroke her thigh but the feeling of the fabric of her pants mixing with her scars absolutely hurt which made her pull a face and make a noise.

"My sweet are you alright?" He asked her, moving his hand away.

Autumn nodded and acted like nothing happened, unfortunately winter knew why she done it and asked to look at her thighs.

She began to panic abit bcs she pinky promised she'd stop self harming bcs how much it upsets winter seeing his love go through this pain. She eventually told him what she had done and he still asked to see her thighs bcs how bad they might be once she showed them they were still bleeding, covered in parts of fluff from her pants and looked like they were already getting infected.

"Oh darling, these look really sore and infected already.". He said looking upset and what she had done to herself.

Autumn stayed quiet and stared into space as winter cleaned her up, only making noises once he put the steroid cream on her cuts.

"Ik darling it's gonna hurt but it's okay..." He said finishing off using the cream and wrapping some bandages around her thighs.

"You can't keep doing this my sweet you were doing so well the last time." He said kissing her forehead.

"I'm so sorry my love." She said sounding like she wanted to cry.

He kissed her cheek this time reassuring her that its okay to be mad and feel like it's all your fault but taking out on your body is not the right choice.

She understood on what he meant and told him that she put the blade in the bin making winter smile abit bcs she done the right thing.

After a short while winter went upstairs and into the bathroom to dig out the blade and put it in the bin outside.
Autumn sat on the sofa with one of her Shakespeare books and listened to the music from the record player.

Winter came back into the room and sat next to her.
"Fancy having a quick gentle dance?" He asked her.

Autumn looked up and decided.
She put her book down.
"Sure my love." She smiled.
Winter stood up and waited for her to take his hand.

She took his and stood up quickly moving to the record player to turn it up a slight bit.
Once she turned it up they began to slow dance for awhile till winter looked at the clock as it struck 9pm.

"Ready to go to bed? Or maybe we can sleep down here bcs I found out something about the sofa a few days ago." He said smiling.

Autumn looked at him curious about the sofa till he showed her how it can turn into a bed from a simple pull at the front.

"Guessing you want to sleep here?" She said.

Winter nodded and waited for her answer.
Once she smiled and said yes he ran upstairs to get their quilt cover and pillows and some blankets for autumn.

They both each had their own blankets with each others names on and it was lavished in their scents.

They put on a movie and autumn dozed off in winter embrace.

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A/N just wanted to raise kinda like an awareness of self h@rm.
As a person who went through it and is now 1 month clean 💞 I am proud of myself about it bcs its the longest I've ever been clean. And I hope if someone ever feels the need to do it just know how many other strategies you can use and you're not alone in all this everyone has similar stuff that they go through but cope in different way ❤️‍🩹