Peso agnst bc why not?

𝙽𝚎𝚛𝚟𝚎 𝙳𝚊𝚖𝚊𝚐𝚎

𝚃𝚁𝙸𝙶𝙶𝙴𝚁 𝚆𝙰𝚁𝙽𝙸𝙽𝙶𝚂: 𝚂𝚄𝙸𝙲𝙸𝙳𝙴, 𝙳𝙸𝚂𝚂𝙾𝙲𝙸𝙰𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽, 𝙶𝙾𝚁𝙴

It's been a long day for me.

I'm exhausted and I just want to cry.

I've been going on missions all week and day, no break at all, I feel like shit. I can't stop shaking and I can't hold it in anymore. I just wanna cry.

I'm simply stood up from the kitchen table and ran to my room, breaking down into tears from the stress, I felt like getting sick.

I flopped on my bed and sobbed.

I kept sobbing for an hour.

The sick feeling kept growing...

I felt sick just thinking about going back to cutting myself...

After I stopped sobbing, I just laid on my bed, I didn't move, my eyes unfocused. My body felt like it was floating, everything felt numb and I couldn't wake up.

I didn't even know what was going through my head when I picked up a random scalpel I left out.

And suddenly.

The world went quiet.

The world felt unreal.

It felt like I was floating, I hadn't even noticed the blood dripping down my thigh. Nor my shoulder.

It was euphoric, but...The realization hit, the blood didn't stop and my body started going numb...I cut too deep

Fuck.

I couldn't do anything but lay there and hope I didn't die yet...

I may be suicidal but I can't die today...

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Sorry it's so short