Mine To Heal

Chapter 17

MUNIRA'S POV

RECAP

My heart dropped to my toes the moment I saw the result.

Two lines.

I was pregnant.

Hisham took the test from my shaking hands to see the result. Our eyes met and mine instantly filled with tears.

"Hayati, please stop the tears we will go through this together remember, I don't like seeing you in tears" Hisham said cupping my cheeks. "It is so hard Kalb, I also feel really guilty because I dislike the child in me so much it is close to hate. Does that make me a bad person?" I asked him.

"No it does not, anyone would feel that way given the circumstances so please Hayati stop the tears it hurts to see you like this" he said, more like begged.

"I love you Kalb" I said hugging him. "I love you too Hayati" Hisham replied beaming at me. He suddenly carried me bridal style and dropped me on the bed.

"What do you want to watch?" he asked as he took the remote and turned on the television. "Anything" I said.

Hisham then climbed up the bed and pulled me to him, I was in between his legs and my back laid on his chest, his arms wrapped around my waist and mine atop his.

He played the movie and honestly, I did not know the name of the movie. I was not paying attention to the movie at all, I was thinking about this child that was in me. Could I be a good mother to it? Will I be able to love and care for it without feeling hate or disgust at it? Even I was disgusted at myself, I was pregnant with a rapist child and the worst of it all was that I did not know who the father is.

5 men raped me and among them is the father of my unborn child. My mind started going down the memory lane. I was breathing hard and flashes of that night clouded my vision and my eyes glistened with tears.

"Hayati what's wrong? You are really making me worried" Hisham said as he noticed my difficulty. I met his eyes and realization flashed through them, he understood what was wrong.

"Hayati, everything will be okay have hope and pray. He does not burden a soul with what it cannot bear" he finished. I turned around facing him almost sitting on his laps, he then grabbed my waist as he settled me down on his laps, making me more comfortable and then wrapped his arm around me.

We stayed like that for about 30 minutes. I calmed down and was now feeling sleepy. Hisham and I then changed into our nighties and he turned off the tv. He laid down on the bed and pulled me to him, I was almost lying completely on his body but he did not say anything about the weight and I was really comfortable. It did not take long for us to fall asleep.

THE NEXT DAY.........

"Kalb" I called out. "Yes Hayati" he replied while still playing that stupid PS of his. I swear that thing irritates me to no end.

"I want you to enroll me into a self defense class" I said. Hisham then dropped the pad and turned to look at me completely shocked by what I said.

"But why though? And all of a sudden?" He said now giving me his full attention. "I want to know how to protect my self for the future and to fight too if there is danger anywhere near me. I do not want to feel helpless again" I said, not completely telling him the reason for the self defense.

"Okay then, but you have to tell me the complete truth, I know this is not all" he said giving me a knowing look. "How?" I asked also shocked. "I know you Hayati, you are an open book to me" he said smirking.

"I want revenge Kalb, I will not let this go like this, I want justice, those monsters will be found and I would be ready for them" I said with all seriousness so that he will know that I am not joking. "Okay, whatever you want I will give you my full support and I have been waiting to hear you say that. You can not let them go scot-free we will pay them back tenfold, we are in this together" he said taking my hands in his.

My heart was filled to the brim as I felt my love for this man increase, I felt like my heart would burst with the love I have for him. I hugged him tight and he hugged back without hesitation.

"I love you Hayati" he whispered into my ears. "I love you too Kalb" I whispered back. "Hayati I want you to know that this is not going to be easy at all but I know you are strong and will get through this" he said. "I know" I replied.

"Let's tell our families about your pregnancy" Hisham suggested to which I agreed. I honestly thought some of my in-laws would be mean about it but all were nice and supportive, from my side also. We were done telling everyone in about an hour, I then called my friends and Hisham called his too so we can break the news to them.

They all knew what happed so there was nothing to worry about.

By 7:00pm everyone was already there and we were eating, we decided to have them over by dinner. Through the dinner we were all laughing and gisting so after we were done, we announced the news.

Dead silence was what we got after the announcement.

After the shock my friends engulfed me in a hug and the men tapped Hisham on the back.

"What are you going to do now" Siyamah asked. " I am going to keep it of course" I said.

"Why would you keep a monsters child you should abort it" Eeman said. "Why should I, abortion is something I would never do and you know it so why say that" I said to her.

"So it is better for you to be reminded of a rapist when you see your child, you will only see a monster" Eeman continued. I do not know what but hearing her bad mouth my unborn child flicked something in me and my hand automatically flew to my belly.

Red clouded my vision as I felt an anger over power me because of the words that flew from her mouth. Since that incident, Eeman has been acting really weird and she was really starting to get on my nerves.

I moved closer to her "You better stop those words from coming out of your mouth because the next word against my unborn child that gets out of your mouth you will leave here bloodied, I swear" I said.

Gasps were heard all around the room as I have never said or did anything like this in my life. Eeman looked shocked and scared too as if she expected me to just keep quite and listen to her.

"Well, no matter how much you protect that abomination, it will always be a bastard and always a monster child".

I stalked to where she stood and slapped her again and again, punching her in the gut, I was pulled of by someone, which angered me even more.

"LEAVE!!!!!! GET OUT OF MY HOUSE RIGHT THIS MOMENT!!!!!!!!!!" I thundered, then left the room banging the door as I made my way out. Entering my room, locking the door.

Sitting down on the ottoman, I placed my head in my hands and then heard a knock on the door. I ignored the sound and moved to the bed as I was feeling suddenly exhausted and tired, the events of the night also contributed to the exhaustion.

I laid down on the bed and instantly fell asleep with the need to talk to Hisham the very next day.

"I think I have found one of the culprits" I thought.