When she came round again she was met with reece's face and she saw tears streaming down his face "Why are you crying?" She dozily asked and he let out a little sob "I thought I'd lost you too" He spoke, Too? what did he mean "Our baby?" she asked and he shook his head letting out a sob as he done so, she felt her heart drop and she too let out a sob.
Their baby, their baby hadn't survived, he hugged her and they cried together, he stroked her hair as she sobbed into his chest, she felt a part of her wither away as she sobbed, their baby, their little girl, she didn't even get to hold her, she was afraid to let her go, she didn't want to let her baby girl go, THEIR baby girl.
"Don't let this be real, please" She sobbed uncontrollably into his chest, he whispered sweet little nothings into her trying to reassure her it was all going to be okay, even when he didn't know it was going to be okay, they had both lost their baby, THEIR little girl, they both never got to hold her, she had grown a little baby inside of her just for it to get ripped away from her, she couldn't do this, she didn't want to do this.
They both were never going to be able to see their little girl grow up, see their little girl smile and laugh, hell they never even got to hear her cry not even once, They saw her for a mixture of minutes, reece when the nurses rushed out the room to try atleast get her to breathe, and marjorie as the nurses picked her up, she didn't remember anything than that.
She remembered briefly about going to follow the light but then she heard reece's name call out from the darkness and she turned towards them, she heard a babies cry in the light and she wanted so desperately to go towards it but she let her gut instict win and she went towards the darkness, she had never wished more to go towards the light, she wanted to see her baby, THEIR baby.
God she had never been in more pain both mentally and physically, she wanted to feel her baby in her arms again, she wanted it so desperately that she felt a ache grow in her chest, why did this have to happen to her, To them? Why did this have to happen?! She wanted to know, She needed to know! she felt herself start to drift off and felt reece lay next to her holding her in his arms.
How were they going to deal with this? how were they going to cope with this pain of not being able to hold their baby, to see their baby smile, their little girl. she fell asleep against reece dreaming of things of what could of been, she saw reece and her little girl grown up, she saw herself laughing with reece as their little girl took her first steps before falling into the grass, hands first.
She heard their little girls first words "Momma", she saw reece pretend to be mocked hurt that she didn't say dadda instead and she slapped him playfully on the arm, She saw her wedding with reece, and their little girl be the flower girl, but refused to throw them because they were too 'pretty' she heard herself and reece laugh at that.
She saw their little girls first day at nursery and felt her proudness at that, seeing their little girl go off to nursery, she saw their little girls last day at nursery and she felt herself ask for a hug and felt their little girl throw her arms around her saying she was going to miss not seeing her everyday, she felt tears started to form in her eyes as she heard that and she heard herself reassure her.
She saw later that night reece and their little girl playing, she felt herself smile, THEIR daughter was such a daddys girl, she saw their little girl go off to primary school and she saw her smile at her, she felt herself smile and tears brim her eyes once again, but this was not real, this would never happen because their little girl was gone, she was dead.
And they were left with a ache in their chests and their dreams being haunted with what could've been. She thinks thats the worst part of it, thinking that you were going to have so long with your child just for it to be ripped away from you just like that and then your dreams being haunted by what could've been, she wishes it could've been. she wishes she was here. But she was not, this was just a dream, Their little girl was dead and she was in a hospital bed in Reece's arms dreaming.
As she slept reece saw a single tear stream down her face and he wanted nothing more to take the pain away from her and add it onto his own, she was the love of his life and it hurt seeing her like this
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Fanfictie*WORK IN PROGRESS* Marjorie gets pregnant, she allows herself to dream and so does reece, they allow themselves to get enveloped in the happiness, but something goes wrong and they find out just how much grief envelops you, will they come out of thi...
