✔️Red - Jung Wooyoung x Reader x Choi San (ATEEZ)

Chapter 64

Just a heads up that this chapter is quite dramatic so be ready.
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The next morning, I looked around Wooyoung's room and I was on my own. The two must have gone to have a coffee and breakfast. I decided to go downstairs and get a drink.

As I got to the kitchen, I saw the two sat at the island table. I was right. They had coffee and toast.

"Good morning." I mumbled, walking to get a drink.

"Morning!" San gave a small wave.

"Good morning beautiful. Do you want some toast?" Wooyoung got up and gave me a quick kiss.

"I'm alright, thanks. I'm not feeling hungry. I'm just going to make a drink." I noticed Wooyoung and San give each other a look that I couldn't quite understand but I ignored it and carried on making my drink.

As I made my drink, I began thinking about what Wooyoung said last night again. I could feel myself blushing. Why did he have to put those thoughts in my brain? Now I am unable to stop thinking about it.

As I made my americano, I could hear the two whispering but I couldn't quite hear what they were saying. I looked over as San hissed. "No, I can't." It wasn't a malicious hiss. It was more of a shocked one. Wooyoung was smirking but I turned back to my drink to distract myself.

"Yes, you can. She will love it. Trust me." Wooyoung whispered but it was loud enough for me to hear. I wondered what they were talking about. Were they talking about a girl? Did San have a girlfriend? Or a crush?

"I can't. Not yet anyway." San mumbled.

"Soon then?" Wooyoung asked speaking up more now. I turned around to them and San shrugged.

"Is everything alright?" I asked, looking over to San. San nodded and Wooyoung just said "we are just talking about guy stuff."

Guy stuff? As in like girl talk? "Is it about a girl?" I asked.

"Yes!" Wooyoung exclaimed loudly with a cheeky grin.

"Oh." I felt my face drop but quickly put a smile back on my face and finished my drink. So he does have a crush or girlfriend.

Wooyoung whispered something else to San which I couldn't hear but they then stopped talking about it. I suddenly felt arms wrap around me.

"Baby, are you jealous that we are talking about a girl?" Wooyoung whispered into my ear.

I gasped. "NO! I mean why would I be. I have you and it is fine that San has a crush or girlfriend." I tried to sound convincing and I think it worked.

Why do I even need to convince them? I am with Wooyoung.

"I meant are you jealous about me talking to San about a girl? Not about San having a girlfriend baby." Wooyoung gave a 'busted' look.

I didn't know what to say or do so I just said the first thing I could think of. "I need to get dressed." I ran out of the room, leaving my drink and ran upstairs. I closed the door as I got to the room and lay on Wooyoung's bed. That was so embarrassing. Why did I assume he was talking about me being jealous of San having a girlfriend? Wooyoung probably thinks I like San and not him. I have ruined our relationship. What if he is going to leave me because he thinks I like San?

Where am I supposed to go?

I can't go back home. My mother was right. I will always be alone.

I then broke down into tears.

A few minutes later, the door opened and Wooyoung walked in. "What's the matter beautiful?" Wooyoung rushed over to me.

"I'm an awful girlfriend."

"No you aren't. Why would you even think that?" Wooyoung brought me into his embrace.

"Well... I..." I didn't know how to say what I was feeling at this very second.

"It's alright if you like San." Wooyoung tried to re-assure me. Wait, what?

"No. I love you Wooyoung." I blurted making Wooyoung beam.

"And I love you too. I love you so much but you like San." I shook my head. This is it. It's over for us.

"I can't like San as well. That isn't normal. I shouldn't like two people at once." I looked up to Wooyoung who had a warm smile.

"It is ok to like San as well. What do you think San and I were talking about this morning? Some random girl?" Wooyoung asked.

"So it wasn't about a random girl?" I asked confused.

"No, it was about you." I shook my head hearing Wooyoung's words. It can't be about me. Is this a sick joke.

"Wooyoung please stop teasing me. San could never like me like that. I still don't understand why you like me like that. I am not even worthy of being loved by one per..." Wooyoung cut me off.

"Don't even finish that sentence. You are worthy of being loved. All of the guys love you. Not just me. It may not be in a relationship way for all of them but they love you as family so you are worthy of being loved."

"But..."

"No but's beautiful. They all love you and you need to realise that."

"Why though? Why would they love me?" I asked.

"Because you are family. We are a big family who care about each other. We don't have to be blood related to care about each other. I know you may be thinking that we haven't known you for long either but every one of them guys care about you so much. Please stop thinking that you aren't loved." Wooyoung begged.

"I'm sorry."

"Don't apologise. Everybody feels this way sometimes. I would be lying if I said that I have never felt this way about myself before but I learned that I am loved. It just took a while."

"You felt unloved?" I asked in shock.

"Yes. For a very long time. When I first started secondary school, I struggled with making friends. I tried to be social but nobody seemed to want to be friends with me so I was alone at school for a long time. I went to school to learn and then came straight home and sat in my room all night. On the weekends, I would just play on my computer or sleep. I had no one to go out with. My parents were barely around at that time as they didn't have great jobs so they were working as many hours as possible. My sister had her friends too so I didn't really hang around with her so I had no one. That was until one day a new person came to school and I was asked to show him around." Wooyoung paused.

"He wanted to be friends with me. I didn't understand why he wanted to when nobody else did. I tried to warn him that he would end up having no other friends if he was friends with me. He didn't care. He told me that he would rather have one true friend than lots of fake friends so we became friends. For a while, I struggled with the fact that he wanted to be my friend. I thought he would leave me when a better offer came or he would get bored of me but he never left. He is still my best friend today and I don't know what I would do without him."
I was shocked when Wooyoung had finished. He never seemed like the kind of person that would feel that way. He is super bubbly and friendly. How could people not want to be friends with him?

"I know how it feels to think you are not loved or wanted. I know this may sound dramatic but if it wasn't for San, I don't think I would be here today." So San was the friend. I pulled Wooyoung in for a hug.

"Thank you for telling me that. I'm glad we can talk to each other about how we feel or have felt before. It really helps that I have somebody I can relate to in some ways. And again, I'm sorry for causing problems and being insecu..."

Wooyoung brought his lips to mine before I could finish. It was a short but sweet kiss.
"Don't apologise. You did nothing wrong." Wooyoung stood up.

"I will let you get ready. Are you going to be alright now?" Wooyoung asked. I nodded.

"I love you Wooyoung."

"I love you too!"

"The San thing still stands." I looked at Wooyoung confused.

"If you like him you can have him." He then leant close to my ear "and me."

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