Cross My Heart (Kim Seungmin Fanfic)

Emergency Ward

Mirae's head was banging as soon as she gained consciousness. It was as if there were bricks on her head because it felt heavy as well as, heavy. She tried opening her eyes but oh, the lights were too bright in the room and she had to squint her eyes, covering them with one hand.

She had no way of checking where she was. The last thing she remembered was the baseball ground where Hyunjin and her were eating ice-cream. This place is definitely not a baseball ground. Then where the hell was she?

"Mirae..?" She heard Sinae's soft and quivering voice coming from the left so she turned to her left, her eyes still shut because of how badly they were burning.

"Nah Sinae..? Is it you..?" She asked, shocked that her voice sounded so feeble. "What the freak is happening?"

Then, to surprise her more she heard another voice from her right. "Try opening your eyes.."

It was Han Jisung.

She then slowly opened her eyes and they instantly started to tear up because of the intensity of the light in the Emergency Ward. She was in a hospital, with wires attached to her nerves for God knows what reason. Did she collapse..?

"Why didn't you tell me about last night!?" She had no time to think as Sinae hit her arms and started nagging at her. "I was so shocked to hear it from Hyunjin! Why the hell would you do that? Can you not use your brains!?"

Jisung seemed to look shocked as well to Sinae's hysterics. "Hey hey... keep it low. Low." He motioned with his palms and then looked back at Mirae.

Sinae got up and put her hand on Mirae's thighs, "I will go get Hyunjin.."

"Hyunjin is here as well?" She sighed, feeling embarrassed and not enjoying being the centre of attraction at all as she held her head in her hands. "Ugh this sucks!"

Jisung poked her arms and pointed towards the floor. "I got you these. I mean, Seungmin and I did. You can have some chocolates if your head is aching.."

She shook her head. "No I'm fine now,"  say smiling. "What are you doing here..?"

Jisung suddenly went mum, trying to make up an answer and apologize in a casual way. "Uhm.. I.. ah.., first of all, sorry."

Mirae stared at him for a few seconds before bursting into a fit of chuckle. His face looked paper white because of how flushed he was. It was hard to stay mad at him 'cause how do you stay mad at a person who apologises with drooling full cheeks and boba eyes.

"Its fine Jisung.." She laughed again. "So  these goodies are an apology gift or a get well soon gift?"

Jisung chuckled shaking his head, shyly scratching the back of it. "Ah.. I seriously did not know how to apologize and I was so freaked out when you didn't show up anywhere. I thought you'd stop hanging out with us..." He cupped his own face and then looked at her, his eyes overflowing with sincerity and seriousness. "You seriously scared the shit out of me, Mirae."

Mirae's laugh died down as they held their stares. Jisung looked extremely serious and honest. "I am sorry. For not coming back for you last night. I was irresponsible, I am aware of that. But please never hesitate to call me whenever you need me to be there. I promise even if you call me in the middle of my own wedding, I'll run to you!"

The funny, joking Jisung was back making her fall on her back from laughing. Hyunjin came in after a few minutes to hand her the medicines. He told her she passed out because of mild hypothermia. She thanked all of them to come to see her while leaving the hospital with Sinae. Jisung stayed there till she didn't find a cab and carried her belongings all the way. He kept texting her throughout the ride. She laughed at his texts.

"I'll consider that you hate me with all you last remaining might if you do not care to text me after you reach home." 6.48 pm
"Please have your medicines at whatever time they're prescribed idk I don't understand doctor's handwriting thank God Seungmin was there with us.." 6.55 pm

I instantly snap my head to look at Sinae who was on the verge of falling asleep. Did I bother her too much? I wanted to ask, but right now it was time for another question. "Yaah, Seungmin was there too?"

Sinae nodded, asleep. "Hmm."

"Then where was he?" Mirae shook her out of her drowsiness. "Tell me!"

Sinae rubbed her eyes, "He bought the medicines. His girlfriend kept calling so he had to leave... Damn his girlfriend! He was the most anxious person amongst us after the doc told us about the hypothermia thing." She then looked at me with a smirk and Mirae already assumed what she wants to say.

Mirae shook her head to the assumption she was about to make, "No dear Sinae, he has not fallen in love with me, or is falling for me, or will fall for me. Okay? He was just concerned as a friend. And so was Jisung? Wasn't he?"

Sinae's head started moving up and down vigorously as her eyes shot up. "But Mirae. I swear. It was as if Seungmin and Jisung swapped personalities. Seungmin became restless and was walking all around the corridor while you were out and Jisung just sat there beside you with his hands joined as if he was praying or something like that."

I wasn't supposed to know that...
I shouldn't have known that...

'Cause now my hands were itching to text Seungmin and build a conversation with him to see if it's just a friendly relationship or is there really any tension?

I still like him just as much, the newly established closeness not helping to give me any reality check at all. But after leaning this I want to see if he cares or not, to see if he gives any hints or not. I shouldn't do that. I shouldn't look for hints in his behaviour towards me. I should not be wanting him to look at me in a way more than a friend. I should not be wanting him to want me too.

Is this bad? Am I a bad person?

I shake my thoughts, that I deemed unnecessary that very instant and look out of the window. I decide that I'll go back to the dorm and binge watch Hometown Cha Cha Cha again just to force my mind out of this place and raise my standards of men. Chief Hong is the ultimate standard and no Kim Seungmin can replace him.

That is until, I received a notification in my phone. It read;

You have 5 unread messages from Kim Seungmin.