Han Jisung Oneshots (bxb)💖

🌸A shoulder to cry on🌸 (Jeongin)

Context~ Jeongin accidentally walked in on Han having a panic attack, he quickly comforted Han, despite his attempts to shut the younger out.

Genre: Angst but mainly fluffy!
Tw: Panic attack and mentions of SH ⚠️

(I will put a warning when a mention of SH is coming up if you are easily triggered by the topic, I highly advise you skip it ‼️⚠️)

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-Jeongin's POV-

I just finished eating dinner with everyone, but I noticed Han didn't come out of his room to grab any. I normally wouldn't have paid any attention to the matter but he's been off lately, so I decided to go and check up on him.

I knocked on his door, not wanting to intrude. "W-what." I heard Han call behind the door.

His voice sounded very hoarse like he lost it. "Are you okay Han, you didn't come out to eat with us" I say as I try to open his door. It was locked.

"I'm f-fine, please j-just leave me alone." He called out.

I could tell by the shakiness of his voice that he was in fact not fine. I jiggle the doorknob once more, in hopes of getting it to open. It remained shut.

"Come on Hyung, I know you're not okay! Let me in!" I say as I still try to open the door in a desperate attempt to comfort my "friend".

"Jeongin please! Leave me alone!" He says and I could hear him break down after that.

I just sighed loudly. I didn't want to do this but I knew Han needed to be around someone, even if he denied it.

I rush to the bathroom and find a hairpin. I use it to unlock his door quickly letting myself in uninvited.

He's sitting on his bed, legs pulled up to his chest. He stares at me in shock as to how I got in. I go straight over to his side and hug him.

He tries to push me away but I have none of it and just pull him into a tighter hug. He started to sob harder than he was, giving up and hugging me back. He just cries into the crock of my neck, and I bring my hand up to his head, playing with his hair.

Eventually, his sobs start to die down and pull apart from the hug. He just stares at me with sad eyes, not knowing what to say.

"What's wrong Hyung?" I asked sympathetically, cupping his cheeks with my hands, and wiping away his tears with my thumbs.

He just melts into my touch and looks down sniffing. He mumbled something under his breath but I couldn't hear it.

"Hm? Can you speak up for me baby?" I knew he liked that nickname so I used it in hopes it would soothe him a little more.

He just sniffed again and looked at me. "I just feel so lonely, no one wants to even touch me," He said as his eyes filled up with tears again.

It always broke my heart to hear him utter those words. Han is a very touchy person, and sometimes the other members and I swat away his love and touch but we never mean it.

I felt especially guilty because just before dinner, Han tried to cuddle up to my side but I pushed him away.

"I'm so sorry Han, but that's not true! We all love you so much, we appreciate how touchy you are. You may not know it but it does brighten our day!" I say as I bring him into another hug. He just hugs back and I start to rock us.

-3rd person-

They stay hugging for a few minutes until Jeongin finally speaks up.

"Do you want to lay down?" He says as he pulls away from the hug to look at Han.

Han nods his head and lays down on the bed. Jeongin does up behind him on the bed, wrapping his arms around Han's torso, bringing him close to his chest.

They both just lay there, Jeongin spooning Han. Han grabbed Jeongin's hand from his waist and started to fidget around with it, comparing their hand size difference, playing with rings around his fingers, and finally, he got bored and just held Jeongin's hand tightly.

Jeongin smiled and squeezed Han's hand. Jeongin kissed the top of Han's head and snuggled closer to him.

-Han's POV-

I felt relieved that Jeongin was so understanding and patient with me. If he hadn't come into the room, I don't know what I would've done.

⚠️ I was already having thoughts of harming myself. I've struggled with it almost my whole life, but now I only do it whenever I have a bad panic attack like that. Everyone in Stray Kids knows about it and they are all very understanding when it comes to helping me get through it.⚠️

Especially Jeongin. He's very kind and supportive, I've been able to let him know about a lot of hard topics in my life so him being the one to come into my room makes me feel comfortable.

I just lay in his arms and all my problems melt away. I feel him kiss the top of my head and I immediately blush.

Physical touch is my love language, and his is not. His doing this for me shows how much he loves me, and I'm so grateful for him.

I'm suddenly pulled out of my thoughts when I hear him break the silence. "You feeling better Hannie?" He asks me, rubbing his thumb on my hand that he's still holding.

I turned around to face him. "A lot better, thanks to you," I say as I smile up at him.

He looks so pretty right now. We just stare into each other's eyes for a moment. I can feel us start to move closer to one another.

Slowly our faces become inches apart. I close my eyes as I feel our lips connect. The kiss was quick.

We break away and stare at each other.

He quickly brought me back into another kiss. I kiss back instantly, feeling his hands go to my waist and mine go to his neck.

The kiss slowly starts to become rougher but I pull away to catch my breath. He chuckles and pulls me closer to him.

I hide my face in his neck and sigh. Feeling a warm fuzzy feeling inside. I trust Jeongin with my entire life, and I know he will always be a shoulder I can cry on.