SINISTER.

Epilogue

Epilogue.

I can't believe how my life has turned out. I was happy as I was going to spend my life with someone who loved me despite my flaws, but faith had to take it away from me and make me miserable. I believe it is in my faith to be miserable for the rest of my life. The faith is cruel, and I couldn't help but cry more after remembering what happened that day. The day when a demon shot the love of my life right in front of my eyes, and I couldn't do anything to stop him. Maybe he would have been with me if I had been able to save him, but I couldn't even help him. He took his last breath in my arms, and I'd never forget that moment. Maybe I shouldn't have brought him into my messed-up life; then he wouldn't be dead. I cry even more now that I remember all of our memorable times together. How could I live without him? If it weren't for my family, I would have killed myself. My family loves me too much, and if something happened to me, they would not be able to handle it. Theo couldn't bear the loss of his mother. He's already lost his father, and I can't make him lose his mother too. He would have devastated, and he may have loathed us for the rest of his life. He deserves to be cherished and taken care of.

My mother whispered "Bella" before opening my door and walking inside with a sorrowful expression on her face.

"It's been weeks since his death, but still, you continue to mourn. I understand that you loved him and it devastated you. But, sweetheart, you must stay strong not only for yourself, but also for your baby that is growing inside your stomach, Bella. He is an important part of Antonio, and you have to think about your baby too. The way you are crying day and night and the way you are not eating anything might affect your baby too. Please, baby, come downstairs and eat something." I wiped away my tears with my big sleeves. She is right; I have to be strong not for myself, but for my baby. He is the only thing I have left of Antonio, and I don't want to lose it. From now on, I will do anything to protect my babies since they are everything to me and my only reason to live.

"You're right, mom; I need to live for my children. I'll be downstairs in a minute," she nodded with a smile and was about to walk away when she turns around.

"We are leaving in a week. Start packing" I nodded and she walked away. We are moving to another country for a fresh start. Yes, here I had beautiful memories with my love once. Here I got to know what love is, here my Theo got his father, here my parents got their freedom, but along with the good memories, I had my bad memories too. Here, I've lost Antonio. He left me with a big hole in my heart. He promised to stay with me forever, but he broke that promise, and I hate him for it. But I couldn't even hate him because I love him too much to hate him.

Matteo and Grace were against of my leaving the country, but I explained why; at first, they refused to let me go, but eventually agreed. I haven't told them about the baby yet because I don't want them to think of me as a burden; certainly, they will be overjoyed that Matteo will have a nephew, but I don't want to make him feel responsible for us. He has already lost his sibling as because of my past, and now I can't give him more responsibilities.

I sighed and rose from the floor, walking downstairs where Theo was asking about Antonio to my parents, which made me cry even more. How do we tell the child that he has lost his father when he has only had him? I took control of my emotions and entered the living room, where everyone was present.

"Theo" I called out and kneeled in front of him.

"Baby, don't cry. Mama is here with you"

"But I want Dada, too. Where is he now, Mama? Did he leave us? Did I do something that upset him, which is why he left us?"

"No, my baby, he did not leave us because we have him here," I whispered, placing his small hands over his heart, but he looks puzzled.

"Mama, what do you mean? Dada will be back, right? I miss him." I shook my head, attempting to stop the sob that threatened to escape my mouth.

"No, Baby. He isn't coming back."

"What do you mean by he is not going to come, Mama?" I bit my lip and decided that telling the truth would be better than lying.

"He went to God. Now he is not going to come back baby. But you've got me right. I can be both your mother and father," but he began shaking his head.

"No, I want my Dada too. Please tell him to come back. I want my dada." With those words, I lost control of my emotions and began crying while hugging his small body. I could feel his sorrow and pain, and watching me cry made him lose control and start crying as well. We cried for our loss. We mourned for the person who changed our lives and who scarifies for our happiness. I could never forget him, and I could never love another man the way I loved him. He will always be present in my heart and soul. He will always be my love of my life and maybe we will be reunited in the afterlife.

A week later.

"We have to go; our flight leaves in 5 minutes." I nodded and hugged Grace again. Who, like Matteo, became an important person in my life.

"Take care of yourself and Nicholas. I'll always miss you," her hands tighten around me.

"I hope you didn't have to leave, Bella. We would have been here if you ever needed help." I shook my head at her words.

"I cannot stay here. It has too many bad memories. But you can always visit me whenever you want" She smiled and nodded. I then reached Matteo, who was wearing a sad smile.

"I'll miss you, Bella. Please take care of yourself. You are like my sister, and if you ever need my help, don't hesitate to reach out to me." I nodded and hugged him back. He was like a brother to me, and I'm sad to leave him and Grace. They both become members of my family, and I will miss them. I am also grateful to Matteo for not blaming me for his brother's death, although I know deep inside that Antonio's death was my fault. And I'll never forgive myself for bringing him into my life and ruining his life.

"Take care of yourself and Theo. I'll miss you guys." I nodded and moved away, and everyone said their own goodbyes before it was time to leave. My parents, Theo, and I began to move, but I turned back one more time since this country had given me everything I wanted: a life full of love, a person who loved me despite my flaws, a brother who loved me, and a best friend who understood me. I will always miss the people I met here in this country. When I moved to the country to start a new life, I had no idea how much my life would change for the better, but I also have painful memories that I will never forget. Unconsciously, I placed my palm on my tummy, where a new life was developing. Antonio and I created this baby with our love. And I'll love him/her until my last breath. I look down at my stomach, and a sad smile appears on my face.

'Even if you don't have a father, I will love you as a mother and as a father. I will give you the happiness and love that you deserve.'

"The flight will take off if we don't move," I heard my father say, and with a sad smile on my face, I began heading to start a new life, but with an empty heart.

The end.