Meant To Be

Chapter 12- I'm here for you

"Fuck you Anthony" John spat. "You can't just fucking walk off stage greenie we have a fucking crowd get out there and play your goddamn guitar" Anthony yelled back at John you couldn't see them you just could hear them yelling at each other from inside Johns dressing room. "Whatever fuck you" John said back at Anthony and then turned to open the dressing room door. You stood there in horror as John walked through the door a ball of rage. He slammed the door behind him and locked it but Anthony and other people were still banging on the door and yelling at him to get his ass on the stage. John didn't even look at you he just stood in the corner of the room. You didn't want to poke the bear but you didn't even know what happened they were only on stage for a half hour and you had been in the dressing room the whole time. "John what happened" you said in a gentle voice. "I do not wanna fucking talk about it y/n I really don't" John said. "Ok" you said. "I can't fucking play guitar every night I can't be famous people everywhere all day asking shit from me maybe I just wanna stay in my room and play guitar I didn't want this y/n I didn't want any of it and fucking Anthony thinks he can boss me around stupid fucking ass hole" John said his voice breaking as he yelled it. You stood there in silence watching him as he buried his face in his hands. "John it's ok you don't have to do what Anthony says all the time" you said walking over to rub his back. John continued to cry as you stood by him. "Shh it's ok baby I'm here for you" you cooed in his ear. Everything was fine between you and John but his dynamic with the band was slowly getting worse by the day. He was sick of touring and he  hated all the attention the album was getting he'd beg you to tell the guys he was sick so he couldn't go out and do interviews with them. "I can't do it anymore y/n" John said. Before you could even reply he already had walked away from you and headed towards the door "Don't follow me y/n please don't follow me" John said as he walked out the door. "John wait John I love you John don't leave" you said as you chased after him. You lost him in a sea of people he was gone.
You sobbed. Tears fell you couldn't hold it in anymore why was he leaving what did you do you understood he was mad at Anthony but that had nothing to do with you. Just then Anthony came running up behind you. "Well where is he" Anthony asked you. "I don't know" you said. "What do you mean you don't know you mean he just fucking left" Anthony yelled at you. "Yes Anthony he fucking left and maybe if you weren't such a dick to him all the time he wouldn't be gone" you yelled back. Anthony looked taken aback. But you were done and started making your way back to the shuttle to the hotel. Anthony called after you but you didn't come back.
(That night)
You couldn't sleep. Every time you shut your eyes just more and more tears fell. It was 3 am now when you heard the hotel room door click open. "Hello?" You said into the darkness. "It's me" Johns voice said. You sighed in relief. John came over and sat on the bed by you and you turned on the lamp. "Where did you go?" You asked. "Out" John said. "To do what?" You asked. "I don't wanna talk about it y/n" John said. John began to take his jacket off and that's when you saw it. He had two syringes in the pocket of his jacket. "You were out doing drugs?" You asked. "Maybe why do you care no one really cares as long as I can get my ass up and play guitar no one will care" John spat back. "Maybe I care because I'm your girlfriend and running out and doing heroin won't solve any problems John" you said. "It could kill you john you can't do this John you can't" you said as more tears welled up in your eyes. John saw the tears and immediately came over to lay by you and hold you. "Don't cry baby oh please don't cry I won't do it again it was time I was pissed off I won't baby I'm sorry" he said wiping tears from your eyes and kissing your cheeks. "You promise?" You said. "I promise" John said. And with that you both fell asleep.