Best of friends

Finally

After Miami, we headed up towards Jacksonville and played 2 dates there. Sarah's leash was getting tighter and tighter on Brendon. He wasn't even allowed to look at anyone now. He had to constantly look at the floor.
The night we had our slumber party, we had sugar and alcohol. It's not the best mix. We played twister. We were having such a good time that we didn't realise that Sarah and Brendon were arguing. We heard raised voices and stopped playing for a moment. Then we carried on. Brendon walked out of the bedroom and sat on the couch. Sarah stormed out and grabbed Brendon by his hair. She was about to pull him by it until she realised she was being recorded by not 1, not 2 but 3 cell phones. Brendon grinned.
"Sarah, get the fuck off this bus. Oh and we are over." Sarah stamped her foot and went into the bedroom, slamming the door. The music went back on and we carried on playing Twister.
I was stood with one leg in green and the other in red. Then I had to bend down. I could see Brendon staring at me in this position. Sarah stormed out of the bus with her suitcase.
"Bye, Felicia." I said. Brendon had a shot of tequila and started playing Twister with us. He ended up with one leg under me and a hand over my head. Then his other hand under Mike. Yea, it all got really silly after that. We all collapsed in a heap. It was decided to watch the movies and eat cookie dough. I sat in between Brendons legs. This was us every sleepover we ever had. Mike was looking and wondering, though I could tell.
I lean against Brendons chest. He cuddled me.
"I have missed you, Robyn. I have missed this. Hanging with my friends and just chilling or drinking or anything really." We all had a shot for Brendons' newfound freedom.
We watched both movies, and then we all slept out on the floor. Brendon spooned me. When he thought everyone else was asleep, he got up and went outside to have a smoke. I followed him outside.
"Hey." He said, lighting his joint up.
"Hi. How are you.?" I asked, putting a hand on his shoulder.
"Honestly?" I nodded. "Relieved. Glad she's gone. I wish I had seen what she was like in the beginning."
"People like her don't show their true self at the start, though. They normally love bomb at first." I said. Brendon was in thought, and realisation hit him.
"Fuck yea." He said quietly. "Come here." And I walked towards him. He hugged me and held me tight for a long time. It was only then that I noticed he was crying. We pulled away and I wiped his tears away with my thumbs. I kissed his forehead and hugged him to my chest. My chin resting on his head. I kissed the top of his head. I just held him whilst he silently cried.
After 10 minutes we pulled apart.
"Thank you Rob." Brendon said as we boarded the bus. I was about to take my place on the floor again when Brendon pulled me towards the bunks. He got into mine and moved across so I could get in.
I laid down facing Brendon. He smoothed my hair back and kissed my forehead.
"I love you Robyn. " He said, yet again. I smiled and cuddled into him. I could feel my eyes getting heavier.
"I love you Bren." I murmured sleepily drifting off.

After Jacksonville the atmosphere on the tour bus changed for the better. We could all properly relax. Brendon and I could be how we always were within our friendship. We goofed around and were serious when we needed to be. Mike was silently observing mine and Brendons friendship dynamic. Mike and I still flirted and he sometimes was tactile with me. I could feel myself pulling away from him though. I was drawn to only one person. I know I needed to speak to Mike. I had that opportunity when we got to South Carolina. We stopped for a show in Charlotte. Mike and I went for a walk.
"The reason I wanted to take a walk with you, Mike, is because I don't think that we are in the same place when it comes to relationships. You want one, I don't." Mike nodded.
"Yea, I agree. I am not blind. Especially when it comes to you and Brendon. He's in love with you, Robyn, and I think you are in love with him." I was taken aback by Mike's honesty. "So if it's ok, I think friends are best for us."
I hugged Mike, and we went back to the tour,bus to get ready for sound check. Brendon was singing away.
"Hi darlin'" He said, kissing my cheek.
"Hey." I said softly. I went to have a lie down. I wasn't feeling too good. Brendon offered his bed. I went and laid down in there. I had the room completely dark. The band left for a sound check. I was dozing when I heard a noise. I presumed it was outside and went into a deeper sleep.
I was woken up to a weight on top of me and what felt like a wet willy in my ear. I was breathing heavily, panicking as I didn't know what was happening. I couldn't move because I was pinned. I could hear a sucking noise.
"Hello baby." I heard in my other ear. He was trying to get my legs open and his hand in my leggings. I needed to not tire myself out if I wanted to get out of this. So I played along with him, making the right noises. As soon as he relaxed, I kneed him in the balls and pushed him off me. I ran out of the bus just as everyone was coming back. Dan was ahead of the others. He held my arms, and then my legs just gave out on me. The other guys ran over to me as the guy who tried to assault me stumbled off the bus. I was trying to get further away from him. He tried to get to me. He was held back by Brendon and Mike. He kept on trying, though.
Nicole sat on the ground with me and Dan as the police were called. I was shaking with shock, so we went onto the bus, where blankets were put around me. I couldn't stop shaking. Dan got me a brandy, and the glass made a tapping noise against my rings because I was shaking that much.