Best of friends

Worried

I fucking hate Brendon!
He's done it again!
He's got me so worried about him again!
I called Vic and Maya and told them what Brendon had said. Vic called Brendons parents. They hadn't heard from him either, and he was staying with them.
I was stressing that he was or had done something like I had attempted. I felt so useless just waiting in a hospital bed. The nurse did actually come and check my vitals. My blood pressure was high, understandably. She asked if I was OK and I told her what had happened. She administered a sedation to lower my blood pressure. I fell asleep.

I was shaken awake by Maya. She was crying.
"No!" I cried out.
"Shhh, Robyn. He's ok. We found him. He went back to his parents to pack. He was returning to LA."
"Was?" I said.
"Yea, was." I heard that smooth, familiar voice.
"Brendon!" I said, and he walked towards me. I hugged him so tightly to me. I was crying yet again!
I kissed him all over his stupid gorgeous face. "I am so glad you are ok." I said.
"Me too." Brendon said back, crying as well. Maya walked out of the room to give us some privacy. "Robyn." Brendon simply said, holding me. All the things that hurt were still there. But the thought that Brendon could not be on this planet anymore overshadowed all of that.
We both calmed down, and he got on the bed and held me. I missed this so much, just laying here with him peacefully. Brendon kissed the top of my head. We must have laid like this for at least 2 hours because the nurse came in to check my vitals again. Brendon had to get off the bed so she could do my checks.
Brendon still held my hand. I didn't want to let go of him.
After the nurse left, Brendon got back on the bed with me.
"Do you feel ready to talk, Ro?" He asked me. I nodded. "Ok," he began. "First of all, I want to apologise for what I did you. I was going on information I had been given. I was fed a load of crap and I foolishly believed it. I should have never questioned your love and loyalty to me. I am so so sorry, Robyn. The last thing I ever wanted to do to you was hurt you. I broke your heart, babe." Brendon kissed my forehead. "You put all your trust in me, and look what I did. I destroyed you. You nearly killed yourself because you couldn't deal with the pain anymore. I will never forgive myself for that."
I placed a hand on Brendons chest and looked at him.
"Ok, is it my turn now?" I quietly asked. He nodded.
"Yes, it destroyed me when the one person I trust the most in the world thinks the absolute worst of me. This was one of the reasons why I was hesitant about changing things between us. I knew that if something like this happened, then that would be it for us. And my heart couldn't take it. Brendon, I was a zombie for weeks. I didn't leave my house unless it was for a job I was hired to do. I didn't see anybody. Not even my own family. I couldn't face anyone. You turning up that day was what pushed me over the edge. I didn't even know I was hanging on until it happened. What was worse was you not being here, Brendon. The thought of you not existing anymore....." I sobbed the last part out.
"Hey, Rob, here I am." He said gently. He touched my face and kissed my forehead again.
"B, you missed." I said.
"Missed?" He looked confused. I kissed him. Properly kissed him.
"I love you, B." I said.
"I love you, Ro." And we snuggled together.

I was finally discharged. Brendon came home with me, even though I said I didn't need him to. Vic had cleaned the house, and Maya had stocked the cupboards and fridge. I have the best friends.
I carried my hospital bag into the house and took it straight to the laundry room. Brendon followed me and marched me to the couch.
He unpacked my bag and put some laundry on. Brendon made me some tea, and we watched a movie together. After the movie, Brendon cooked dinner. Roast chicken with mash potatoes, vegetables, and gravy. It was delicious.
After dinner, I got up to clear, but Brendon wouldn't let me. He told me to go sit down. Brendon loaded the dishwasher and turned it on. He came and sat with me. I crawled onto his lap and cuddled him. He inhaled my smell, and I inhaled his.
We watched some tv before we went to bed. I had a pair of pj shorts and a vest top on. As I lay in bed looking at Brendon, he traced my face with his fingers.
"I have missed this. Touching you and how your skin feels against mine." Brendon said as he rubbed his nose along my cheekbone.
"So I have I. I have missed having my arms around you B."
"Ditto." Brendon replied. We kissed and made out for a little while before we both fell asleep.