Un poco rota..

hard to love, easy to leave

Why does the destiny enjoy disappoint me? 
Why do I think anything good could happen to me? 
Maybe I always look at the dark side, 
Maybe I'm too negative. 
Some days I feel blue, 
Even more when I see my world black and white. 
Nothing good could happen if I'm too scared to try.

I feel blue, 
Because I don't know what my color is. 
I don't know what I want. 
I'm too selfish, insecure, and arrogant. 
Do I think I'm better than others? 
Do I think that I don't deserve anyone? 
How could somebody know me if I don't even know who I am?

I don't understand. 
I feel blue, 
I feel dark, 
I feel too scared, and it's hard. 
It's hard to try time and time again, 
And nobody took my hand, 
'Cause I push them away. 
But I want it. 
I want them to stay, 
I want them to stay, although I'm too mean. 
I know I'm hard to love and easy to leave. 
I want them to stay, 'cause I'm too lonely to live.