Role.

Fifteen.

Forewarning, gets a bit dirty.

"Do you have a crush on Misha?" Jensen had asked me.

Of course I wasn't sure how to answer that question. Was I even positive? I mean, any girl would get butterflies around Misha and feel safe. He's just that type of person. He and myself had just gotten out of a relationship. We're we ready for a relationship together?

Then again, he and his wife had divorced and he mentioned to her that he loved me. I started to feel something for him even before I had eavesdropped and found out.

Was I in love? Or was it just teenage hormones?

I looked at Jensen sad eyes. "I'm not even sure myself." I felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my chest. I know I said this earlier yesterday on the plane, but now I actually meant it and wasn't whispering it.

Jared looked at me sympathetically. I stared at my pink toes as Jared spoke.

"Tell us how you feel around him. We know that extra kiss the other day wasn't meant for the camera. We saw..." He sort of gaged, "we saw your tongues."

I felt heat in my cheeks and continued to stare at my toes and the white comforter on the queen sized bed.

"I'm not sure." I thought back to when Misha and I kissed on set. Thinking about it made me crave his lips on mine and I found myself chewing my bottom lip in thought.

"Whenever I think about the kiss on set, I think about his lips on mine. He gives me butterflies whenever we're together. The other night, he was tickling me and I felt butterflies. Whenever he's in the vicinity I feel calm. I felt calm around him instantly when he touched my shoulder at the first convention. I'm not sure if I'm ready for a relationship with a man who just signed divorce papers though. I'm not sure if it's just my past self coming back." I crossed my legs and looked at the guys pleadingly. Maybe they could make up my mind.

"Did he tell you the honest reason why Vikki and him got divorced-"

"Jensen-"

"She might as well hear it." He cut Jared off, then continued. "Vikki had started to cheat. That was positive, but he and her were fighting for a bit. He told her- and she agreed- that he wanted a divorce. Things weren't working. Both had fallen out of love. Each had fallen for someone else. Vikki, with another L.A guy, and Misha with you. Misha was crying that night because he was lost and confused. He was wondering if he'd just given up for nothing, thinking you wouldn't like him back.

"He then started to think of how Vikki didn't want him back. He knew it was for the better. The poor guy needs to know, Em. He's feeling strung along. He needs an answer." He finished and I was left a little speechless.

"I'll let you know. Give me till dinner." I replied and rolled over. It was 4:00 pm. I had another hour and a half to think things over before we headed downstairs to the small hotel restaurant for diner.

I continued to text Lilian as Jensen and Jared exited and I heard Danneel and Gen's worried and hushed voices.

"Fuck." I mumbled and fell onto my side still cross-legged.

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Dinner time came and I had made up my mind. I put on my pair of old converses and a pair of skinny jeans, a red short sleeve with frilly sleeves, then curled my hair.

I got the elevator downstairs with Jensen, Danneel, JJ, Jared, Genevieve, Thomas and Shepherd.

"Made up your mind?" Ben asked.

"Positive."

"So what is it?" Danneel asked.

"You'll see." I wasn't sure what I was going to do. Honestly... I kind of wanted a dramatic response from everyone. I think a few people at the table will probably choke on their food thinking I'd say otherwise. Probably scare the shit out of the children. Whatever.