Love lust // 4

nevermind

julias pov*

i stare at the walls. i see a drawing of bellamy and i touch it, i get a flashback and i stop touching it.

i look at the drawing next to it and see aurora laying in my lap. "do you miss him?" i hear auroras little voice say.

"everyday"

i touch it and remember the memory in the bunker. i let go and look at the floor, to see a drawing. "prisoner 397 on the wall now" i look away and stare at the door. i walk to it and it opens, i walk in and it's the camp where the drop ship is, it's packed with stuff. i watch as the gate closes. i look around, it looks like it did before we blew it up. i turn and walk slowly further into the camp, as i do i see my dad.

"dad?" he turns and smiles at me. "hello sweetheart" i hug him,

"how is this possible. how are we here?" i ask pulling away from the hug, "what's the last thing you remember?"

i look away as i think. "i died" i mumble. "come here a second" he walks me over to a chair. "now you rest" he says, "it's over. i've been fighting for so long"

"i know you have" i look at him and smile. "i never thought i'd see you again" 

he smiles at me. i look away and my smile fades, "i didn't get to say goodbye" 

"to aurora, to clarke, to mom, to bellamy" suddenly it starts thundering. i look and stand up, "what the hell?"

i walk over to the door of the drop ship and look outside, staring at the rain. "it started when i got upset"

"jules. what do you hear?" my dad asks, "rain"

he chuckles. "i'm serious, focus. between the raindrops, what else do you hear" i close my eyes and listen.

i start hearing something beating,

"a heartbeat" i mumble. i look at my dad. "i'm still alive" he smiles. "no. no i saw it, he killed me"

"he didn't" my dad says standing up grabbing my shoulders. 

"i loved being here, and i love you. so here you are"  i look at him. 

"oh sweetheart" he hugs me, "i don't understand am i dreaming?" he pulls away from me. "this place, is reacting to you, so we're just in your subconscious somehow. but beyond that, there are no answers for you here, jules, so go on. go figure this out, i'll be here if you need me" he kisses my forehead.

"i love you dad" i smile. "too the moon and back" he says. "now go on" i walk to the gate and it opens, i walk through it as i look at my dad.

i turn and i'm walking through a white light. i get through and i'm on the mother ship. 

i hear shooting and see a red door, "sanctum is mine!" i shake my head. "what the hell is going on" i hear a door open. i turn, "it is reacting to me"

i walk closer and walk through the door, suddenly i'm in the clothes i wore at arkadia. i look forward and see alie. "no, clarke killed you"

"and i saved you from praimfaya" she says, she walks closer to me. "how am i still alive?" i ask. "your mother and sister both had neural mesh put into their head" i nod. "yea so?"

"you were born with the neural mesh in yours. that's why this depository is here, that's why i'm here" i look at alie confused, "no that's not possible"

"it's possible. very very rare, but possible" i shake my head. "so that's why i'm still alive. the neural mesh must've interfered with the drug"

"correct but you won't be alive if they figure out how you freed raven" she walks over to the memory of raven, "we emped the chip"