Love lust // 4

epilogue

i finish making Clarkes grave. i sit there staring at it. i grab the ring out of my pocket and bury it next to clarkes grave.

"may we meet again. i love you both"

i feel someone touch my shoulder and i look up. "come on. let's eat" bellamy says. i nod and stand up. he kisses me and grabs my hand.

"i love you" i mumble.

"i love you more" he says, we walk over to the group and murphy serves us our food. fish.

"wow, great cooking skills murphy" i say.

"they come in handy" i laugh and eat my food while watchin aurora eat with picasso right next to her.

"to our friends that we've lost on the way" jackson says.

"they'll forever be missed. may we meet again" i add.

"may we meet again" everyone repeats,

bellamy wraps an arm around my back as he eats.

"so, who wants to go with me tomorrow to look for some wood to build our homes tomorrow?" eliza asks.

"i'll go" hope says.

"me too" octavia adds.

i smile watching everyone interact.

...

i lay down in bellamy's chest. he fell asleep but i can't. it's dark out now and everyone's asleep.

i stand up and walk over to the water. holding bellamy's jacket closer to me.

i stare at the water glistening in the darkness. "hey" i hear someone say. i look beside me and see eliza. "hey"

"how are you feeling?" she asks.

"happy, guilty"

"guilty?" she repeats confused. "my mom and clarke should be here. our friends should be here" i state.

"they are peaceful wherever they are. the wouldn't want you to think about them too much. they're proud of you, i know it"

"clarke died because i wanted to protect the man i love"

"she understands. there's no way she doesn't" i nod.

"you're right"

i feel her hold my hand. "now, we have our family here. everyone who we could save. is alive and here" i look behind me at the people sleeping. "yea. the people we love"

i look at a sleeping bellamy, "i'm gonna go back and try to sleep" i say. i let go of her hand and walk over to bellamy, i sit down and lay back. resting my head on his shoulder. i feel his grip tighten around me.

"goodnight bell"