#𝙠𝙖𝙮𝙛𝙡𝙤𝙘𝙠 𝙛𝙖𝙣 𝙛𝙞𝙘..
He eventually turned the corner and opened up a gate seeing what looked like a secret garden.
'"You found this how?"
"Come on" he leaned forward to grab my hand and pull me towards him, he closed the gate behind us...
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Carmen Aiko Walker | 19 | YouTuber
It's weird how internet didn't do me as dirty as I thought and they weirdly liked me and Foolie together I guess its cause I was far away from their crush is why they didn't bash me like I thought they was going to.
You obviously had your few that had some things to say such as calling me a "smooch, bop, treesh" but those little comments under Munna's post in comparison to what I got under the blog page is a crazy difference.
Which just shows that everybody a dick eater cause how y'all calling me everything under the bus now y'all out here thinking that we're cool.
Ain't nothing keeping away from Kay unless that tell me out of his own mouth that he don't want me around him and I think we know that ain't happening.
The video was doing well so Munna told me that we should do the "part two" of us going out somewhere to eat to make it more interesting and then we'd do the 'spending 24 hours together' video which I don't want to do.
I know we not going to be together for 24 hours but being around him for 30 minutes is more than enough for me. He acts like a little boy sometimes, very hard of hearing and annoying.
Kay knew the video was for content so he didn't care about the whole thing between me and Foolie, but he did make some known to me.
His words were; Ion care about the video, just don't be sneaky bout none. I'll back off you but right now you mines.
As I said it look like Carmen ain't going nowhere when it's clear that I don't want Foolie I just don't want folks on the net to drag shit out and have Kay questioning himself about wanting to be with me because folks putting stuff in his head.
My plan was to chill for the rest of the day and edit the video that we did with the pregnancy simulator.
Turning on my TV I scrolled through Disney+ thinking about putting on a Disney movie so I could lay in bed and think about the fun times I had as a kid, no bills, no stress no nothing. Just pure laughs and giggles everyday of the week. I wish times could be like that again.
Even if I have to pay bills at least make me be happy I'm not depressed or nothing, just very neutral with everything around me but I wanna be happy everyday life like that just seems better. I been praying for a life like that, hopefully I get blessed one day; to be genuinely happy.
Sometimes I be feeling like that healed shit is just a bag of bullshit, does me being 'healed' mean I can't think about none of the situations where people kept doing me wrong time and time again. Where I'm there for everyone and no one is there for me?
