HYUNG! - dino x svt

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Dino POV

I rumbled through Dino room and try to find anything just anything to make me more understand his life.

After thirty minutes of searching I finally found a diary under his bed where nobody would notice it was there if they didn't search it like me.

I slowly open the diary and many words were written.In some first pages he write how he was glad and happy because of Seventeen and Carats and in some pages it was his disappointment in his career and telling himself that to do better.Awww Channie you're already good!Don't be hard on yourself.

As I turn paging the notes some really got my attention which were written this year because it was full of depression and sad words.I turn to the most recent one which written before my accident.

1st July 2024

I want to die.Can I just die in my sleep?Nowadays eating those medicine doesn't helps me anymore.I became worst and my doctor told me that if my depression and anxiety were like this I can't never dance the same again the rest of my life due to the fear of falling.I need to be treated for at least one year but an idol being treated just as a crazy person?Nobody would ever stan me again.I try hard to eat meals but I already didn't eat anything properly for the past two weeks.My depression and anxiety is killing me that I don't even remember the sleep I have without a sleeping pills.The dose gets bigger and bigger.Now,I need at least three pills to sleep for five hours straight.Who would thought that behind this idol with a happy face there was a person who want to die so bad?No one understand me and none of them try to approach me.No one welcomes me with this disease.I wish I was never born as an idol...

[I wish I reborn as an idol!]

My tears drop.Is Dino going through mental disease?Nobody knows!Even the members,families and Carats!Dino why?Why?Are you really get tired of being an idol?Then just say so!I already swear on my life that I would follow you anywhere till I die!But why did you choose to die!

I kneel down and hold the diary near my chest like I'm protecting him with all I can.I cry like a baby but I don't even care.I blame myself so much too because how can I didn't know my idols pain behind his pretty smile?I hate myself so much.

Then suddenly I remember my body.Maybe Dino and I swipe body.I need to find him.I need to speak to him.Why didn't he tell anyone about his disease?If he didn't get treated fast it would be very bad for him.Now,he even think of killing himself.I don't even want to know what's he gonna do in the future.

I fastly take out his private car and wear sunglass and mask and got out of his house without noticing anyone.Idol have a rule that as long as they're under their contract they need to tell all their whereabouts all the time.That's exactly why I can't find my real body till now cause I don't want to put Dino reputation in danger but now there's no time to think of that.

As I finally arrive at my real house I sneak in my room from the back garden like I always do.I was surprise when I see my room cause it seems like no one has ever used it for the past three months.

Then on the table I see a beautiful picture of me with a freshly white rose on top of it.I took the picture and on the back side it's written 'Kang Chaeri 2002 - 2024' I drop the picture.W-What is this?Did I die?After about a minute, I heard a footstep that I fastly get out of the room.

As I was back in the car I drove fast to the hospital where I was taken when I have the accident.Did I really die?What about my graduation party?What about my parents?My friends?More importantly what about Dino soul?

I didn't have time to think anything that I fastly get into the hospital and go the receptionist fast."C-Can I look the dead list for the past three months?" I said while the lady look at me clearly."Aren't you-"
"Please can you do faster!" I almost shout then she slowly give me the file.

I look from the first name but there's no my name till the last two months.I felt relieved as I almost reach the end but then I saw my name on the last second and I felt like my world has crumbled.I died one week ago?The file said I was in a coma for more than two months and I didn't know that!

Was Dino in my body?Now that I'm dead did he died also?No why is everything so complicated!Dino I didn't mean I want you to die when I wish for being born as a kpop idol!

I slowly get into my car and the first thing I did was crying real hard."I-I'm sorry Dino...I c-couldn't save you..." My body being dead was already a torture to me but also losing Dino soul?I couldn't bare it.I feel like I took his life.But you know what's more sad?I really did.

I stay in the car for I don't know how many hours but as I finally stop crying the first thing I want to do is to sleep cause my head hurts like hell.I drove back to my house and arrived shortly.As I get in I was surprise to see the leader of Seventeen sitting in my sofa.Why did he come here and how did he get in?

"Hyung?" I called him as he was busy looking at his phone.He raised his head and from his eyes I knew that he was pissed.Okay what did I do wrong?I was a bit afraid when he stand up but because of all the things I gone through today made me don't give a damn about anything.I just need to sleep.

"How did you get in here?" I said and take off my coat and sit on the sofa.He came near to me and stand in front of me."I asked your manager."

"Why did you cross my priva-"

"Privacy?I'm your leader for God sake Lee Chan!" He raised his voice and I'm a bit startled because why did he get so mad?I just said that casually.

He took a deep breath like he wants to control his emotion and I'm so terrified of him.He looks like a devil calming himself down."What is this?" He said in a cold stern voice and threw over his phone beside me.I pick it up and it was a photo of me from the hospital.How did they take this?It was more than twenty photos.They even capture me with the paper I hold.The heading said 'What is Dino try to do with the dead list?Did he hit someone and died?'

"This is isn't true." I said fast while SCoups sighed."They didn't know that.But can you tell me why did you get out without our permission?" SCoups said and I looked at him fast with so much emotion.Did Dino get this kind of treatment whenever he did something wrong?

I felt so sad.

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