HYUNG! - dino x svt

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Dino POV

I was hurt and lost in my thought and SCoups Hyung spoke again which bring me back to reality.

"Answer me Dino.How many times did I have to tell you not to drink many alcohols?Did you ever listen to me?None of the members knew this for now but I'm sure after one hour or two you sure gonna need to do some explanation to the fans,company and to all the members."
He said exhausted and I'm shock.Shocked at how SCoups treat Dino when he did something wrong.

Then it hit me Dino Diary, 'nobody understand me none of them approach me no one welcomes me with this disease'.

I just figure out with his disease this kind of treatment would be too burden for him.Yes.This is it.I always knew they wouldn't be the greatest Hyung for Dino but I didn't notice they would be also his kind of sadness.

I slowly stand up in front of SCoups and look at him sharply."Did you always did this to Dino?" I asked and he look confuse."What do you mean?"

"I mean you never treat Dino like the maknae!" I shout now."Okay Dino that's off topic." He said and I boiled.

I don't know why I suddenly get so sensitive maybe because of all the things I just went through.It was too much for me.First,I realized Dino has been suffered with mental disease then I just find out my body has already been buried and I didn't even know where Dino souls is!And for the last thing I didn't even know how to get out of his body!

Everything was a mess right now and I knew that I need a long sleep first to get back to normal again but SCoups was already here to have a not so sweet conversation with me and I just couldn't take it anymore.

"Did you know that Hyung ever since pre-debut Dino never like you!He was so scared of you that when he was around you he hardly breathe!You are the real reason why Dino is the most bullied K-Pop maknae in history!You are the oldest and you should treat him like he deserve but you never did!You are the main cause of this!You might he the greatest leader in history but you was never a good Hyung to Dino!From the beginning you're so cold towards him and I really hate you for that!"

There I said all the things I always keep in my head or am I just being angry at myself that I couldn't even saved Dino?

SCoups look at me with a hurt expression but I don't mind it cause I'm boiled with anger right now.

"Y-You never ever like me?"

He slowly asked me and I look at him in his eyes like coldly and answered,"Never."

"All those years is there a moment you feel grateful for having me?"

He asked again and now his voice is barely out and his eyes plead me to say 'there is' but I just couldn't find when I feel grateful to SCoups for the way he treat Dino so I answered him honestly.

"No." I said and I didn't look at him."And please can you go now?I need to sleep." I state firmly and he try to protest."But Dino-" but I fastly cut him."And don't ever come in my house without my permission." I said and my tears drop.I swear to myself not to cry but it's hurt so much of all things that just happened that I can't help but cry.

SCoups reluctantly get out.I didn't even look at him because I was so hurt.Hurt of everything.If I'm really gonna live as a Dino for the rest of my life I should at least made his life more respectful so that others can value him.Don't worry Dino you got me.I whisper and pat my heart to made me calm.

Even if the world is against you I will still stand by your side.

End of Dino POV

After one day...

Jeonghan take out his dorm card and open the dorm of Seventeen.It was dark like no one was there but he knew that somewhere in the dark there's should be a man with so much sadness.

Then he got in and fastly smell a lot of alcohol coming from their dorm kitchen that he went straight to it.

As he expected he see a man with an alcohol on his hands that looks like shit because that man sure didn't shower and didn't eat anything for many hours already.

He gets near to him and he almost puke because of the strong smell of alcohol.He sits beside him and he was glad because although the man is drunk he knew that his mind is still clear.

"What are you doing here?" Jeonghan finally asked but the man didn't even bulged like he already knew Jeonghan would be there."Hannie you're here!" The man try to act like he was happy but both of them knew clearly that he was so hurt.

"Seungcheol,did you even know that you didn't get home for 24hrs?"

Yes.The man who drink lots of alcohol and looks like he lost everything was none other than the leader of Seventeen,Choi Seungcheol aka SCoups.

"Hansol called me saying that you're in the dorm looking like shit." Jeonghan spat and SCoups bitterly chuckled."If he see me then why didn't he come to see me by himself?Why did he called you?Am I that scary to the maknae in our group?" SCoups said while Jeonghan sighed.

Jeonghan exhaled first and sit lazily."So it's really because of Dino."

"What do you mean?" SCoups said with a sincere voice when he heard Dino name.

"Even before our debut the one who can make you go this low is only our maknae Lee Chan.You never cry for any member unless it is Dino." Jeonghan said and SCoups froze but drink the alcohol again to get his mind drifted off.

"You know,you really care for Dino.So,the reason why you're here like this would be because Dino-"

"If I care him so much then why did he hate me?" Jeonghan froze while SCoups looks like he's about to cry.

"What?He will never hate you!" Jeonghan protest fast because he knew just the thought of hating by Dino would broke Seungcheol into million pieces.

"He said that he hate me." Jeonghan look at him fast.He sure knew this isn't going to be a easy task.

"Jeonghan...he said that he hate me and never like me ever since our pre-debut.H-He also said I was just a great leader and never been a good Hyung to him..." SCoups tears was falling now and it's so hurt to Jeonghan to see him like this.

"Cheol,he might just be angry and said those things." Jeonghan said and pat the crying man to calm him down.

"No!I knew that he want to say those things long time ago!I-I hate myself so much for not caring him more!" Jeonghan shake his head in denial.He knew that although SCoups might not babying their maknae like other K-Pop groups he knew that the leader always care for him behind everyone's.

SCoups might not show his affection openly but behind every members and fans SCoups always look for Dino.He still remember the way he used to cry just because Dino used to be scared of him during their pre-debut.

"Shhh it's going to be okay." Jeonghan doesn't know what to say anymore because he also didn't know how to react to Dino feelings towards their leader.

He knew that Dino never been so close to their leader but he also never thought he would come this far.But he also notice how Dino never been with Seungcheol lately like he sure knew they will never went out to dinner but lately Dino never sat near to SCoups like he's afraid of him or something.

It's almost midnight when Jeonghan finally sent home Seungcheol after many comfort words and tears.

Jeonghan will not say anything to Dino since that is the leader request but the leader will never be the same.SCoups lay down to his bed and before he finally become unconscious he whisper,

"Dino I wish I used to love you more..."

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