brother's best friend | Pedri González

27 | Mistakes & Promises

- Ellinia - 

~ 3 Months Later ~ 

I've been in a rut for three months. Not my best work, I know. Don't blame me. 

But it's been 3 months since I've talked to Pedri. Since we went on that holiday. Since that party. 

Was it too soon? Did he really have to take us to meet his parents? 

I mean, I guess it was fair to Pab since it's been a while since he last saw them, but still. 

The wound was slightly still fresh although we 'patched' up whatever we had. 

I thought everything would finally work in our favor for once. 

Our favor. 

Not just his, or not just mine. 

Us. Together. 

But I couldn't put myself in such a position after the party. 

Obviously, he won the bet and you know what came after that. 

I still get flashbacks to this day. The way he touched me, the way he cared for me so gently yet passionately. 

I can't find another person who knows my body like Pedri. Nobody could ever, will ever fill the gap that Pedri has burnt right through my heart. We both know that. 

I'm a grown women. It was time I made my own decisions. 

And I decided I need time to myself, that we were going too fast. 

I tried my best, but I just wasn't happy. Not upset at Pedri or anything, just at myself. 

I knew I could do better, be better for myself & for Pedri eventually. 

So, I did what one girl does. 

After that trip, I isolated myself and started to look for apartments, preferably one without a roomate. 

Cut my hair. Short. Like, short.  Got my nails done. Changed my skincare & makeup routine, bought a whole new wardrobe. 

I must admit, that did make me feel much better. 

Whoever said retail shopping isn't the best therapy, I don't know why they would say such a lie. 

I was getting multiple messages from Pab, Dany & Pedri  but I took the liberty of leaving bleak and dry messages to Pab & Dany. I couldn't let them think I was dead. 

Pab <3 (15 new messages, 2 missed facetime calls): 

Pab <3: Elli, is everything alright? 

Pab <3: Call me please 

Pab <3: Come over to my apartment,  please. I'll make your favorite pancakes. I miss you, so does Pedri.

I stopped reading his messages right there. I was aware that Pedri had moved into the apartment with Pab, but I didn't know that they talk about me.