This will be my last story,
My final letter to you,
A closure for my course,
I hope it's enough.
Caspar,
Your smile, a treasure to keep,
Your laugh, a melody I crave daily.
Your gentle demeanor,
The gentlest I've known.
I had a crush on you,
Even when I was with Nox,
You knew our bargain,
And I felt so low back then.
Everything I wanted,
I found in you.
A partner, a lover
Someone I could see eye-to-eye with.
I once made you my rebound,
In my delusional fantasies.
What if I wasn't with Nox?
Could we have a fresh start?
Would I be too boring for you?
The good girl playing nice?
We kept talking,
We still met.
I think i found closure,
Though I don't know for sure.
I want to cry,
I feel like want to avoiding you,
And pushing myself to the limits,
Though my ego wants to show.
I know you're not with anyone now,
Or maybe you are?
I don't know
We never talked deeply,
Our conversations stayed at the surface,
We relaxed back to our old selves,
Before we went our separate ways.
Am I delusional all the time?
Sometimes I feel unworthy of your time,
Respecting the friendship we had.
I listen to songs,
Writing this,
Hoping to move on.
But I don't know,
I still delusionally hope
That we could be something
But with you,
I can be myself,
Express my thoughts,
Share my jokes
We have the same spectrum
I cry, now I'm crying.
I run,
Pushing my feet till it hurts.
Seeing other girls trying and succeeding,
Men seem more driven by the fire,
Something women sometimes don't understand.
I want to caress your face,
Kiss you,
Hug you,
Feeling us in arms
But i feel like you're drifting away,
Moving forward while I'm stuck.
What should I do?
Which way should i go?
Only time will tell
If I'll ever move on
I'm in love with your vibes,
Your demeanor,
Things I've never found in others.
I can't see you with someone else now,
And I don't know if you feel the same,
Which I also don't know
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Romansa(We vs The World AU) Kara Lloyd, a bold and impatient young woman, reflects on the unnoticed aspects of her love life. Through introspective musings, she reveals her secret curiosities about the guys who catch her interest. With a mix of humor and h...
