Vision Of Blood

Chapter 21

-SILAS POV-

"Silas, calm down ma.." Manuel says, placing a hand on my shoulder. I close my eyes and take a deep breath.

The entire night Manuel and I have been trying to find any hints about Maria's whereabouts or next plan.

But nothing.

We got nothing.

I inwardly curse at myself for thinking that my life was finally getting to where it want it, but Maria always seems to find her way back to get in my life in some kind of way, Carlito as soon as he found out the news called his brothers to watch everything and be careful.

Now i have to go home and tell Ramiro.. now we have to be extra careful and extra careful with saint. I turn to Manuel who rubs my shoulder, trying to comfort me as much as he can. I sigh, turning to Manuel. "I'll call my cousins, Maybe they can help.."

Manuel nods. "Yeah, for sure.. what about Amalia and her brothers..?" Manuel questions.

I pause, my mind drifting onto amalia. My stress seems to double as i think about her, and thinking about what her brothers are going through, along with her father and mother. I look at the time on my watch, sighing heavily. "I need to go home..I'll call you if i find out anything.." I say to Manuel.

Manuel nods, kissing my forehead, i scowl as he smiles. I turn and walk out of his office, staring ahead.

Can't ever get break, can I?

-AT HOME-

I walk inside the house nothing more than wanting to be with my Ramiro and Saint.

I walk into the bedroom and see Ramiro on the bed, rubbing saints back as he sleeps on my side of the bed, I relax as soon as Ramiro's eyes meet mine. Ramiro immediately senses something is wrong and speaks.

"What's wrong beautiful..?" He says softly. "Dinner didn't go well?"

I take a deep breath, shaking my head, I sit on the bed, looking at Ramiro. "Maria. She's still alive and she's— she's coming after me and Serena.."

Ramiro's hand that rubs saints back immediately pauses its actions, he places the blanket over saint before scooting closer to me. "What..?"

I slowly nod. "She's coming after me and Serena and we have no leads..." I look down, my hand trembling.

"Ramiro, I can't even think about this woman without my body getting tense and feeling like I can't breathe... and knowing she's still out there.. and now I have a son.." My voice breaks, I shake my head.  "I can't do it again.."

"Hey... hey look at me.." Ramiro says softly, gently grabbing my chin to turn my head towards him, looking into my eyes. "I will do whatever it takes to protect you and Saint... whatever it takes and I mean that.." He says gently, caressing my cheek.

I sob softly. "It's not me I'm even worried about, it's Serena... it feels— it feels like I shouldn't even be away from her right now Ramiro... and god.. I can't get this feeling out of my chest, I can't fucking breathe...."

Ramiro places his hands on my shoulders, squeezing softly. "Baby, breathe, okay? Serena has carlito... surely he won't let anything happen to Serena, trust me.."

I sniffle, shaking my head. "It's not easy to get that through my head Ramiro, I've been— I've been taking care of this girl for as long as I can remember.. I can't— I can't lose her.." My hands shake as I try to calm my breathing down.

Ramiro brings me into a tight embrace, not saying anything. Just holding me. And it's all I could ever ask for for right now.

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Right now it is the middle of the night, I've just put saint into his own bed, I am now walking to the bedroom where Ramiro waits, he lays on the bed in a black compression shirt, and grey sweatpants, he smiles softly as he fixes his glasses.

He stand up from the bed and gently unbuttons my blazer, getting me out of the rest of my clothes until I'm in my undergarments, he picks me up from the back of my thighs, I wrap my legs around his waist, letting out a breath, letting my face rest in the crook of his neck.

He gently places me on top of him as he lays on the bed, kissing my head.

"I love you mi amor, so much.." he says softly into my hair, my body relaxes even more I close my eyes.

A few hours later I lay awake, looking over at a sleeping Ramiro, I glance at my phone, thinking of calling Serena until I look at the time.

I shrug; grabbing my phone and as soon as I unlock my phone, I get a call.

It's from Serena.

I quickly answer it, putting it up to my ear, my body tense and heart racing. "Are you okay?" I ask quickly.

Serena's soft laugh from behind the phone is heard, my body relaxes as I realize she's safe.

"Silas.. I'm okay, I'm laying in bed with Carlito, he's sleeping right now.." Serena says softly, I rest my head on the headboard as the grip on my phone tightens.

"Yeah... Ramiro's knocked out to.." I reply, taking a deep breath. "You remember how to use a gun right?" I suddenly ask, remembering when I taught her how to use a gun just in case if she ever needed to.

"Yes Silas, I remember.. Don't worry okay?" She says softly into the mic.

There's a good silence for a few minutes, I stare up at the ceiling. "You should get some sleep.." I tell Serena into the mic.

She sighs softly. "Yeah, you to Silas.." she replies.

I hum. "Yeah... goodnight.." I'm about to end the call until Serena's soft sobbing is heard, I pause and tense.

"Silas... I'm scared.." she whispers, voice shaky, my heart breaks at her words, I close my eyes, my hand tightening on the phone.

"Yeah.. yeah me to Serena.." I whisper softly. "I won't let anything happen to you, alright?"

She sobs quietly as if she's trying not to wake up carlito. "Can we sleep on call, please..?" She whispers, voice cracking.

"Yes Serena, I'm here okay?" I say gently into the phone, putting my phone on speaker and onto the nightstand.

And for the entire night, I didn't even get a wink of sleep, my eyes were on the phone the entire time as Serena slept.