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🌸Love In The Time Of Envy

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Why are you smiling at him like that ? I have never felt this before. I can't hide it, my head is spinning, crazy yeah.

I yearn to be the one you turn to, the one who makes your heart skip a beat. In your eyes, I see a spark that I wish was reserved just for me.

~ Lee Heeseung

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Heeseung's pov 

I feel so bad, damm it. Jay and Sunoo are my best buddies, we make music together, laugh together, eat together and so on yet I am feeling jealous of them just because Nina is soft and all glowing while interacting with them but with me. I feel like I am being ungrateful and petty. 

But what can I do ? My heart yearns for her, her smile, her heart. I have been deprived of her for so long so when I found her again, I don't want to share her with anyone. I absolutely don't and won't allow, call me asshole or anything, I don't care. 

 Why do she get to smile at him like that? Why can't she smile at me like that ? I don't like seeing her laugh with him. It's like she is sharing a secret I'll never know. Who is he to make her blush like that? I want to be the one who makes her blush.

I hate how she look at him with such admiration. Can't she look at me like that too? Why do she need to talk to him so much? Can't she talk to me instead? I feel like I'm losing her to him. Please don't forget about me. I am such an asshole, I am scared shitless even at the thought of her forgetting me. I am sad that she still can't remember, was I mattered a little less for her to forget me so easily ? 

I am in some deep shit dilemma in our music classroom, alone waiting for those two to come so that we can practise for upcoming music festival. I am not blind, I know that Jay have Sophi and Sunoo have Siya but Still a pang of jealousy. 

My mind was a jumble of emotions whenever I watched Nina laugh and chat with Jay and Sunoo. I felt a pang of jealousy, which I quickly tried to suppress, but it only seemed to grow stronger. I couldn't believe I was thinking like this - I was supposed to be happy for Nina, not resentful of her friendships.

As I observed Nina's easy interactions with the others, I felt like I was losing my grip on reality. I knew my thoughts were irrational, but I couldn't shake the feeling that I was being replaced, that Nina's attention was being pulled away from me. 

Huh ! the irony, I was the one who went away first from her life now I am feeling like this. So, this is what falling deeply in love feels like. I felt frustrated and stressful so I decided to cover a song instead of Jvke, the song name is called " This is what falling in love feels like."

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The piano's sound resonated across the room, a soft melodious tune with Heeseung's angelic voice adding life to piano's rhythms, his hands glided across the keyboard, hitting every notes precisely.