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🌸The Boy Who Came Back

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The boy I thought I'd lost forever was standing right in front of me, with the same sparkling eyes and bright smile that had haunted my memories for years.

My heart skipped a beat as the pieces fell into place. The boy who had vanished without a trace was now a man, standing in front of me with a familiar gaze.

~ Kim Nina 

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Nina's pov 

The next day came rather quick than I wanted it to. I haven't slept a wink last night, feeling conflicted emotions that made me overwhelmed. My face is all puffy now as I'm on my way from my autonomy class to library where Sophia is waiting for me. I also haven't came across Heeseung yet and I wanted it to stay it this way, I don't have it in me to see him after yesterday because even though my love is same for him, even deeper than before if I say doesn't affect the fact that I also have petty feelings for him because he ghosted me for years in the past without any explanation. 

Yes, I am petty. When he left, my life crumble into shambles, everything became unbearable, I almost wanted to end my life. I sometimes feel like, the persons I gave my heart to always break it somehow, and they trample all over it. My parents, the friends that I blindly trusted and my one and only childhood best friend who is also my first love.   

I have cried tears of blood from my time in middle school, I just wanted to disappear if not for Jay. I will never be able to move on from it, it has deeply affected my life. the scars are not healed at all, they are engraved under my skin. Heeseung's departure left an void in my heart, I felt empty and hollow like he took the most valuable piece of me with him without my permission. And years later, here he is back again with same smile, I would die for. 

Now I know why I got attached to him this quickly, The familiarity I felt whenever, he was around me, gazed at me or when his presence around me alone gave me a sense of immense warmth, security and love.  I know its not Heeseung's fault, my life fucked up but I can't help being petty and selfish blaming him somewhere in the depth of my heart for leaving me. 

Because whenever I was ridiculed by those bully students or whenever my parents belittling me, mocked and taunted me, I always called his name to come to my rescue, every time, every damm time. My heart always hoped that He will come, Heeseung will come to pull me out of my misery but he never came and I was left hoping. 

My trust, hope crumbling from the face of humanity and all those people who says, 'There's always humanity present in every corner of world'  I refuse to believe in it, I absolutely not. Its always me against the world, Where were those people when I was asking for help, crying when those students did me wrong, nobody came to help, they just looked with pity in their eyes even after knowing it will not do anything.