𝐎𝐋𝐃𝐄𝐑 ୨୧ 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐋𝐈𝐗

୨୧ 𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐞 ୨୧

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felix woke up in the middle of the night and didn't feel good.

he immediately bolted to the bathroom, flipped up the toilet seat and puked out his beautiful dinner he had with chan, minho, and sung.

felix didn't know how this started, one day he just didn't like what he saw. felix threw up until he dry heaved over the toilet.

he just had the most beautiful day with a new boy and his best friend but he couldn't even go one night without his bulimia taking over.

felix doesn't want to die, he just wants to be skinny. and he is skinny but he can just be thinner. he doesn't know why his body won't just thin out, he's stopped eating, exercises on the daily and even throws up everything he does eat.

"felix— are you....oh" jisung sighs as he opens the bathroom door to see felix curled up in a ball, sobbing his heart out. he walks over to the boy and kneels down, "lix, it's okay—"

"no! it's not! it's not okay! i just can't do this! the weight just won't go away!" felix voice breaks as he continues to sob.

"lix," sung starts, "it's okay, everything will be okay. we'll go through this together okay? you are strong, now come on, let's go lay down,"

technically when felix was with chan that night of the club, he didn't regurgitate his food so he was technically one day clean. so it was hard on him since he thought he was doing better.

maybe he wasn't, maybe chan was just a distraction, and maybe that's a good thing.

felix stands on wobbly legs, using jisung as a support and walks go his room. felix lays him down and gives him a kiss on the forehead, "take off of school tomorrow and rest okay? i'll text chan on your phone and tell him your free so maybe you to can go out. you seem to like him, him and minho are the first people you've ate in front of in a long time,"

felix just sighs and nods, he tried not to think about anything.

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felix wakes up to knocks on the front door, and goes to open it sleepily. while walking to the door, he sees a note on the counter from sung,

just letting you know i went to classes! i'll be back in between classes to check on you. feel better <3

maybe sung forgot his key? felix thinks as he opens the door and to his shock reveals chan with a bouquet of flowers, "goodmorning sweetheart, you look beautiful,"  chan said.

"chan?, come in, come in. how did you even know i was home today? i told you i had classes?" felix asked letting the other in.

"jisung texted me late last night saying you were sick so i wanted to come to surprise you, is that okay pretty?" chan said coming in the door.

"im not super sick, just a little too tired to go to class today, are those flowers for me?" felix asked pointing to the bouquet in chan's hand.

"yes they are, just for you," chan comes close to the younger and gives him a kiss on the forehead, "beautiful flowers for a even more beautiful boy,"

felix is a blushing mess, "awe, thank you so much channie, i love them,"

"you're welcome but that's not all, i scheduled for us to go out to brunch, you want to put one of this little cute outfits on so i can take you out," chan said putting the flowers on the counter so he could hold felix's hips.

"of course, let me get ready,"

yeah...felix forgot that getting brunch, entails him actually having to eat.

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felix's outfit: