LOVE IS PATHETIC

Chapter Seven

"More drinks I want something stronger." I ordered another bottle I know I needed to head back to the house tomorrow I had shoot but when I remember what she said to her friends fuck "Why is the drink taking you so long, goddamn it. I need to go see her maybe she also feels the sexual tension that has been hanging with us since that night.

I cancelled my order and went home. Home. Goodness I even called that place home. On my defense you get back to a warm cozy cooked meals welcomed with smiles that's how a home is right? You have a certain peace and enjoy the tranquility surrounding it right? I'm loosing my head. I called V he always know what to do and say even if it will piss me off he doesn't give a damn." Hello..""I want to fuck her," I didn't even let his greeting get to me." Woah slow down you want to fuck who again?" He teased already knowing who am talking about. He was the only one I told about the arrangement that happened over here and he claimed it being fate. Even he believes in that shit not that I blame him. He's always a romantic. Jimin is still fucking Regina the club girl honestly he should just date her. "I just can't let her out of my head and today when I walked in on her conversing with her friends I wanted to kiss her so fucking badly that it shook me. Are you getting me V I was shocked with that level of need then she looked at me all pale and I imagined her eyes widening from something else." I breathed out."Dude you're in real bad besides if she wants it and you want it then there's nothing to worry about just scratch the itch tell her that it's a one time thing no feelings attached then fuck her soul out of the body simple."I don't think it will be that simple."She's into connection and shit people like that tend to get attached easily. "Tell her the rules first if she agrees well and good if not too bad go fuck outside. Maybe you'll be the one getting attached because she's already occupying a lot of space in your head. Be careful hyung don't let your heart be broken again." I know what he's talking about. "Please tell me the details when you two do it," I ended the call since the rest were unnecessary. The uber pulled up a few blocks from the cottage then I went home with a smile on my face and a script in my head of how this is all going to go.

It did not follow the script. In all scenarios this was not catered for at all. She was nowhere to be found. I got home and found it quite dark and cold. When I opened the lights I saw food on the table so I had hopes then the pink note caught my eye and I felt my stomach sink. Hi, I know this will find me already gone. I cooked for you an African meal since I don't know any Korean dish. My mother is from African. Please take it as an apology of what happened today. I moved out to avoid the awkwardness and the vibes. We both know the tension was stronger by the minute or maybe I imagined it I don't know. Enjoy your stay.

Joice.

I crumbled the late in my hand of course she left. They always do one way or another. I don't get it from what I heard she also wanted me she even noticed the sexual tension that has been hanging on us like a cloud. I went up to her room and true to her words she left. I sat on her bed and finally thought it was for the best. Besides I wasn't that close to her even a week wasn't finished yet. I fell on her pillow and inhaled her scent God she smelled divine. A soft mixture of vanilla and flowers. Too delicate.

I got up and looked around I must admit she packed quite cleanly. Nothing was left except her scent I decided to get to my room when I stepped on something looking down, I found a lip balm. Like people still used this design? I went to my room and found the credit card I had given her. At least she wasn't even interested in my money like I had thought. Why am I sulking? I don't even like her. I don't even know her.

I freshened up and went down to have my now cold dinner. I warmed it up and went to watch the TV. It was still on her favorite channel and the drama she loved to watch was airing. I wonder if she's watching it. I switched of the television and opened the drawer to keep the remote when I found her book. Looks like she his it and forgot about it. I took my dinner then went to read. Some reading won't kill a man.