LOVE IS PATHETIC

chapter sixteen

OK IAM not freaking out he just said he's dating maybe he's preparing his fans before he posts us right? I was pacing around my house waiting for him to come over it's almost a year since we started dating I've seen his family and well my aunt isn't around either and I know this day would come and if I keep pushing it I'll never be ready for it but what scares me is his career. I heard the door open and took a deep breath now let the talk begin.

"Hi love, come on in would you like some water?" I asked going in to give him a kiss. "No I'm ok really so let's talk about what happened look I know I should have atleast given you a heads up before writing that." he held my hands sat us down looked me in the mirror then continued. " I know you are scared that maybe they'll hate you or maybe they'll stop supporting me or even turn against our group and I know it will kill you if either of the choices were to happen but I wanna show you off I wanna tell the world who makes more smile who's my muse the woman beside me. I can't do that with you in the shadows I don't want to hide us anymore please." He cradled my face with his hands with glossy eyes and when he wiped my tears away it's when I realised I was crying. "I know it's not going to be easy but am ready now well I've seen many people support us support you despite the news so that's positive and I know not everyone will be happy for us so yeah IAM ready to stand beside you and let's face this coming storm together," I leaned in to his touch and the smile he gave me made me gather all my energy and strength I am ready for the incoming knives.

I am soo not ready for this a week has passed since Yoongi posted a picture of us together and my dear I was not ready people are everywhere like yes they re but now I see no feel them everywhere some recognized me and honey I've not rested. I know he told me to stay away from the internet and how the fuck is his love life on the news I don't get it some comments were support but some hell no they even held a night discussion for this like is it because I'm black because I don't get it. Let's talk about his business some of his merchs are being rejected and some burned he is even edited out of so many photos and videos my god this is why I didn't want us to go public. I haven't met up with him yet he said he'll handle it and not to worry like now I'm staying at Regina's and I think all this is scaring her now that she's I don't know fucking Jimin. I try to keep myself useful and not idle but not IAM worried for him so yeah I know it was dumb but I went to him and my goodness he looked tired and I didn't know what to do no actually I do.

I recorded a video didn't want to go live they'll eat me alive before I talk so yea I recorded it. After I uploaded it, I went to bed and cuddled my boyfriend all the while leaving our phones on silent. I was woken up by shouting males in the house so I went down to check since Yoongi was asleep at first I thought it may be a thief but then again the security here is good so no that's ruled out. I heard voices in the kitchen and whatever it was I could take it. "What the hell?" I stood there frozen because six other members were in the house like eating whatever food they could find all the eyes were on me then I realised what I was wearing my man's boxers and a t-shirt which seemed like it shook them so I cleared my throat and looked around trying to figure out how to how to get out of this awkward situation."Hello lady of the house I must apologize for waking you up we thought he was alone my apologies," ok atleast V is kind enough to apologize."Cut it out you guys are scaring her"I hear Yoongi say from behind me hugs me from behind and kisses my hair good morning.

"Okay love birds while you guys were fucking with your phone's on silent , the news is finally under wraps and yes you guys have fans support they even want you guys to do a live together especially after your video Mrs. Min looks like you even have a fanbase of your own which is progress I ....." "what video are you talking about Jimin IAM floating over here what's happening and how can things change overnight and for the record we weren't fucking ruined the morning glory for us actually." Leave to my man to make things seem light."maybe you should sit down for this honey let me play the video for you"I said dragging him to the sitting room yes he looked confused so I played the video for him.

Hello , I HAVE NEVER RECORDED such a video before so here's how this is gonna work out. IAM the lady who Yoongi is dating and yes I've seen your comments thank you for all the support you guys have given us but I promise to thank you with him later in his love this is for the fans who feel like he has cheated on you and well it hurts I know like how could he betray your trust like that it's almost a year and he kept it a secret from you guys now that's bad even when I was the one who told him not to tell you. look if you're here just because you're hoping that maybe one day he'll notice you then I'm sorry he's already taken but if you're here  hating because am black fuck  motherfucker. I love him he loves me for crying out loud he is getting old let's give him space he's a man  you do know he isnt a virgin right? look like what v said get out of your fantasy world it's not a safe place to be in. look around you you'll notice the guy who treats you right the one who accepts you and put up with you're drama and trust me that feeling is the best you'll ever experience find your love and happiness and let us build ours you followed him because of his music and I haven't no I can't take his talent from him he is still the same well maybe not but I can assure you he can still driver Moore than he had back in the years thank you for understanding goodnight lovelies.

When the video ended, Yoongi turned to me and kissed me like we were alone gosh. "I couldn't be more happier babe the fact that you revealed yourself and your social media is more than enough for me" please get out of my house unless you want me to have blueballs guys w'll talk after guys off you go. The other members laughed as they went to their homes and of course v returned the extra key he had and yes we didn't fuck as I said ,I owed some loyal fans a live together from the both of us together and yep this is us on the screen talking animatedly with the fans they we were welcoming and when they digged and found out I used to be a dancer with my current career ,I couldn't help but feel like I've finally made it but you know the journey of two people together as one is never smooth but hey atleast we've made the first step together.

THE END.