i have my problems with english lessons. they're boring, they don't teach me anything, they don't help, and they're just humiliating for me, so i usually just work on my scrapbook during lessons. the only reason Mr. Home doesn't call on me every lesson is because he knows its hard for me to read, and that's what i appreciate. not anything else though.
today, when we had our english lesson, one of our grade's bullies mocked me for not being able to properly read a word. they always do that. Mr. Home always calls them out and gives them a bad behaviour mark, but it doesn't change anything, it never does. it just makes it worse. that's one of the things i don't appreciate.
when Elijah, one of the bullies, remarked me on that today, i instantly felt my cheeks flare up. i almost cried but i held back, because i didn't want Mr. Home to come over and make it even worse, if that's even possible.
After the lesson finished, i went into the bathroom to let some tears out. its hard to hold your tears in at school. i hope that in the future they make a scientific experiment on this; "Is it harder to hold back tears at school? - social experiment." that would be really funny. actually, not really.
