𝐑𝐞𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐞 𝐎𝐟 𝐀 𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐫 | 𝐓𝐨𝐦 𝐊𝐚𝐮𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐳

➤ Soul Ties

Me and Tom were on a camping trip In a small and less popular town with the rest of the members of Tokio Hotel.

We traveled In a small camper van. There was only one bed inside unfortunately so we would have to take turns sleeping outside In the tents we brought and Inside the car Itself.

Gustav fell asleep along with Bill at the back and Georg was busy texting his girlfriend most of the ride. Leading him to honestly get a little sick..

We arrived at the place. It was a beach and there were hotels and small stores around. Beautiful place.

It seemed somewhat.. familiar?

I didn't want to assume. Neither to ask about it. My head would hurt every time I attempted to think about the past.

We arrived at the place just in time for the sunset.

I wanted to help but the boys were being chivalrous and told me to go rest or enjoy Instead. So I did what they said.

I headed over to sit down on the sand. Near the water, listening to the waves. I was in such a perfect area where you could see the sunset effortlessly.

I collected shells out of the sand, and cleaned them out of the clear water that brushed my feet.

Wearing a dress, I had a flower in my hair.. as It blew around In the wind.

I sighed at the peaceful moment. Admiring the aura of my surroundings.

Wondering.. what was my life before this?

I understand. That people have explained to me and told me about the moments. But I genuinely want to know.

Detailed. What happened? Everything good.. What happened?

What was me and Toms first kiss truly like behind the camera..

How did It feel when he told me he loved me for the first time?

Were we really the Ideal couple everyone talks about?

Did I realize I fell In love before he did?

Why did this place feel so familiar..? Where was I?

So many questions, left unanswered.

But there was one question that I truly wanted to know the detailed response to.

Was I really loved?

After years, of not deserving neither having it.

My whole life, I've been told I was loved. But I never felt that way.

I brushed my hands through the dry sand. Drowning In my thoughts.

"Fae!" Gustav called out to me. I turned around to look at him. My hair blowing in my face.

"We're going to jam a bit before dinner. Come on, Tom wants you to sing with Bill!" Gustav says excitedly, pulling my arm.

"Alright, alright!" I giggled.

I headed back to where the camper van was along with Gustav to see two large tents set up and a fire place with camper seats all around.

Tom had his guitar out and Georg seemed to be making a lot of s'mores which Bill was devouring most of them.

Gustav cheered as we arrived and took a seat.

I sat down In the middle of the twins, fixing my hair as I assumed it was messy from all of the wind earlier.

"You okay?" Tom asked, strumming his guitar to check it's tune.

"Mhm.. just, thoughts." I smiled at him.