Dazai angst omg!

Pointless regret/World still spins

Dazai misses Mori

Got inspired at 4 am to write this after calling my bf

I'm sorry the chapters are short recently but I find that not pushing myself to write longer chapters if I don't have the steam to keep on going makes better writing overall.

I don't smoke by mitski feelin a bit too real recently 
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Dazai almost never missed Mori, he hated mori in fact. Mori had done horrible things.

..Though, today, he cut deep into his skin well sitting on his bed. He kept cutting, whether it be a small one resembling a paper cut, or a deep one that drew more blood than he thought he had. And as he did so, his mind went to Mori. He hated that at times, he missed that monster. Even if Mori hurt him, the way he comforted him, and cared about him was nice. Mori wasn't someone he wanted to regret leaving, but sometimes, when his mind was too quiet, he did.

He missed the way Mori would praise him, call him smart. Call him strong, brave, anything that Mori could think of he would call Dazai. And, god, it worked. Mori hurt him yes, but when he hugged Dazai afterwards and bandaged him, he really did care. Surely.

Dazai wrapped his arms around himself, blood seeping out of his wounds and landing onto his sheets. He tightened his grip on himself, it almost felt like Mori was comforting him. Telling him that it was okay, it was a mistake.

Surely Mori would've said that.

Surely, He wouldn't have hurt Dazai.

He wouldn't do that.

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Oh Dazai honey yes he would

Hope this was good, I enjoyed writing it 🩷