𝖢𝗁𝖺𝗍，𝗆𝗒 𝖾𝗑 𝗂𝗌 𝗆𝗒 𝗇𝖾𝗂𝗀𝗁𝖻𝗈𝗎𝗋⚘𝖠𝗍𝗌𝗎𝗆𝗎 𝗑 𝖱𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖾𝗋

Chap 25ミ★

HEY HEY HEYYY PRETTY READERS SOOO here's another flashback chapter. It's a really short one it's just Atsumu's POV of how the break up was for him and it's really short so I might upload another chapter?? Anyways enjoy pretties 😍😍

flashback chapter

Atsumu's POV

It's been a few days since I broke up with Y/n... god I hate saying that. I heard she's still in Tokyo watching the rest of the games. Fuck those games. Fuck the players. Holy shit I'm still angry that lost was the worst one yet. I really thought we were going to win like come onnn those sets I did were so gorgeous and I worked like a maniac for them too even punching myself. Why did we have to lose?!? I was awful that's why. And I was distracted by Y/n... her cheers started distracting me.. I don't know what it was but it diverted my attention, it wasn't that bad though like the fan girls. She was too much though, I know she was trying to lighten me up but it wasn't doing it for me.

I just got back from a jog and I needed to clear my head. I enter my room and it's still the same. I haven't touched anything just my bed but I hate it. I hate how I smell Y/n on my sheets and every corner I fucking go to it has at least one item that she owns that reminds me of her. I run out of my room and go downstairs. Samu is on the couch eating a snack and watching the T.V "still sulking?" He ask with a tint of annoyance in his tone " shut up" is all I said and left the house again. I can't do this.. yeah my anger and emotions took over during nationals but why did I put all on Y/n. I'm such an idiot.

I feel my heart pull with emotions. I fight back every tear that's in me but it sucked and I start crying on my walk. I let go of my girlfriend for a stupid fucking reason. Fuck. I'm an idiot. She's a gorgeous lady and her heart is full of love and affection for the people she loves and that personality of hers shines bright like no other... Why am I such an idiot?.. Right I broke up with her cause she's too distracting for the next step I'm taking. I need to focus on Volleyball..it's the only right thing to do. I'm going to focus on it and win every game I'm in cause I did it. I did those sets that will give a greater hit. I will be the reason why we will win. After thinking about that my heart still stung with emotions. I chose to ignore it though.

My brain knows what's going on though... I'm still thinking about Y/n. I push any thoughts of her aside and go back home. When I got back Samu is still on the couch and I make myself a little snack. I sit with him and he turns towards "so when do you plan on getting back with Y/n?" He asks and I give him a questioning look "Never. I'm going to focus on volleyball" I said and kept eating "You're so annoying Tsumu one day you're going to regret saying that" he says and leaves me on the couch. I ignore his comment, I probably will but volleyball over anything that's in my way.

1 day later:

I slept on the couch last night. I don't know what happened but I was crying a lot last night. The realization I got knowing that Y/n is out of my life hurts. She humbled me a lot when we were dating. She taught the more beautiful things in life! Ugh I need to stop thinking of her and start thinking about my college team and then the next one after that. I'm focused on improving with volleyball. I sigh and stretch on the couch "Honey! Why'd you sleep on the couch again?" My mom says from the kitchen "Sorry got too lazy to get up to go to my room" I said sluggish and I can feel her disappointment from here. She got a call from Mrs L/n telling her what happened. My mom flipped out and ran to me asking me for an explanation.

When I told her she looked at me like she wanted to slap me... which she did but after she sighs and told me "If that's what you want son. But I hope you learn from this someday that, this is the most dumb fucking excuse ever to break up with someone. I hope one day you'll learn that" she said in the most mom voice you could ever imagine. I reach for my phone and check my socials like usual. I check Y/n's account. I don't know why it's been a habit since that moment. Everything is the same. Even the posts she had of me are still on there. But.. I can't see her highlights.. maybe she removed me from seeing them.. what is she posting? Why isn't she letting me see them...? I groan and get up. I feel awful my face all puffy from all that crying.

I go to my bathroom and wash my face with cold water to get rid of the puffiness. I go down and eat some of the food my mom made and I eat in silence. I can feel my moms disappointed aura from here. When I finish I go to my room and my heart clenches. Fuck I need to clean this place up. Which I did. I got everything that reminded me of Y/n and put it in a box and outside of my room. I open my window to let everything out. I can't have her scent lingering.. that's too much it's going to lose me off my tracks. When I'm done I go to the gym and practice my sets and drills for volleyball after going for a workout. I need something in me to divert Y/n's existence and pushing me to do better is helping.

When I get back my mom is on he couch just chilling "Hey mom!" I said acting all normal. I look at my mom and she has a letter in hand.. I look at it confused and she looks at me with a little bit of tears in her eyes "Is everything ok? What happened!?" I said not kinda concerned "Yeah I'm fine,  just got something really sweet from Y/n.. her mom dropped off some stuff for you at the door and she gave me this.. god she's an angel.." she says and I look at the box that's full of my stuff from the looks of it. I take my stuff to my room and my heart clenches now. Fuck every time I think I'll be fine I'm not fine. She gives me my hoodies back and the stupid things I bought her.. why didn't she throw them out? Everything smells like her again and my heart clenches even more. I look deep inside and see my letter.. my heart drops and I feel numb again. I pick it up start reading it;

Dear Atsumu,

I'm writing this letter to you to say thank you. Well I'll try to write without crying.. again.. anyways, thank you for the laughter and support you've given me for the last three years. You've shown love and honesty I've never seen before. Thank you for giving me the experience to know what love truly is until you hurt me with something stupid like this one. I wish we could have lasted till infinity like everyone said... but all good things come to an end. I know I'll miss you.. your hugs, kisses and compassion. The memories we've made will be kept in a file cabinet in my head. The fun ones , the loving ones and weird ones. My heart still breaks when I turn and see something that makes me think of you. Miko will miss your fun runs  and errands we would have. I'm still surprised from the moment that just happened. One thing is for sure this is going in my books. I'll be telling my children all of this hoping they won't make the same mistake... That's besides the point, this hurts knowing you did this to me.. the night you left me in that garden at the hotel still haunts me. I waited for you to come back and say it was a joke but you never did...  But I have to accept it. We're young and we still have years to go.

All I'm trying to say is thank you. And I wish you well. Also.. the things at school will be hectic for a bit wouldn't it? So I think we should just say that we're not doing all those things in front of people and especially at school anymore so people won't be coming up to us asking.. or you could just say we broke up depending on how you want to say it. I'll just follow your lead. Anyways.. thank you Atsumu.

Love,
Y/n

I read the letter at my bed numb to the bone. I want to go to her and beg for forgiveness for anything.. but I can't. I've made up my mind already. But the words she used and everything, detail she used to hurt me. It's like she's actually saying goodbye.. I feel tears curl at the ends of my eyes and they start to fall again. I lay in my bed burying my head under my pillow.. why am I crying when I broke up with her. Fuck. I get up and just sulk not leaving my room till I starve. I can't do this, I need to move on.

The rest of the school year I would at times come to school late. The group sort of separated siding on who they should hang out with. Some of them would alternate who to hang out with like Suna. He bounces back to the team and the girls team. He would tell all of us stories about Y/n. I know it's to piss me off but I would ignore him. Whenever Y/n was mentioned I zoned it out. The fans were not happy at all. Well her fanboys, they'd give me dirty looks when I walk down the hallway or shove me by the shoulders, I'd ignore them. Even my fans. They tried getting all up in me when they found out. It pissed me off a lot so I ignored it and pushed them away. But when I would get home I'd cry. I'd cry for a while. I see Y/n everywhere and every day, her smile has weakened and the pain is prominent when you see her. She looks like she's lost herself and it's all because of me. One day in the future I promise I'll be better, more mature maybe so that one day.. I could win her back and be the person to bring that smile back.

I honestly don't know if that was angsty.. but I hope yall enjoyed 😘

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