*Sonic's POV *
"Sure." I said and went to sit down on the couch I had in my room. The room was big enough to have it's own couch and coffee table in front of the TV. The knot in my throat forming again as I waited for him to sit down. "What did you want to talk about?" I asked as I noticed he sat on the opposite end of the couch, giving us some space between us. A bit too much honestly.
"Well." He started then looked down at the floor.
The tension in the room grew bigger as the silence remained. He was taking his time, looked like he was thinking about what he was about to say. I remained silent to give him time to think but I was curious of what else he had to say.
Was he going to tell me the same thing as earlier? Was he just checking in on me?
No matter how things ended between Shadow and I, I knew Shadow still cared about me at the end of the day and I made sure he knew I cared about him too. I knew we were both not the same anymore but we will have to remain friends because if the kids.
"I can't make you happy anymore." Shadow started, taking a deep breathe as he continued. "I want to, chaos that's all I've ever wanted. I wanted to wait for you, however long it took, but I realized you're not happy with me." He looked at me and I couldn't help but finally look him in the eyes. My ears dropped at seeing his eyes teary. "I-" He stopped once he noticed the eye contact.
"Continue..." I said then slowly looked down. My own eyes turning wattery as I waited for him.
"I love you." My ears perked up at hearing him say that and immediately snapped my head to look back at him. "I wanted you to hate me, to leave me alone, to stop calling me those stupid nicknames for half the time I knew you. But after I realized I liked you, I couldn't help but drop the act and loved being around you, loved holding you, being around the kids, having a family. I wanted to marry you, to be with you, I wanted to keep you and make sure you were safe." A few tears rolled down his muzzle, he was talking a bit too fast, running out of breathe, being honest with his emotions for once. "I came here to tell you that we will never be back together, that I can't love you, I can't ever be with you again, but... that's not what I want."
"Shadow..." A few tears rolled down my muzzle as well.
"I don't know what you want." Shadow continued. "But I know I want to be with you. I just don't want to hurt you again, I want you to be happy, and I haven't been able to do that for you. I keep hurting you, you couldn't even be around me, Sonic. Thats why it was better that I left. That I gave you your time to think abojt what you wanted but I realized that maybe it was better that we would never be together again. I dont think that anymore, i want you, thats all I want is to have you back in my life. And not just as my kids parent, i want to be with you, to find a way to make you happy again." He took in a deep breathe then out, slowly.
"Shadow." I said again and moved closer to him then reached for his hand and squeezed it. "I love you too."
Why deny it? Why lie to Shadow?
We both felt the same way towards the other. We were both afraid of getting hurt again, of hurting the other, of not being enough.
"I don't want this to be over." I said with a sob. "I want to be with you again. I am so sorry it took me so long to realize." I broke down. "You do make me happy. I just felt so lost for a while. I felt like a failure." I looked down with my ears pinned down. "Horrible for the way I treated the kids after you disappeared. I am not worth of your love, Shadow."
His arms were suddenly around me and he pulled me closer, into a tight yet tender hug. I gasped and immediately hugged back and cried on his shoulder. He rubbed my back slowly.
"I'm here." Shadow whispered, his voice broken as well. "I'll stay here."
"I want you back..." I cried. "If you'll take me back..."
Shadow stayed quiet but kissed my forehead and pulled away then cleaned my tears. We looked into each other's eyes, both leaning closer to each other until there was no space between us anymore and our lips crashed, finally.
I wrapped my arms around his neck as he wrapped his around my waist and pulled each other closer to the other, slowly pulling away after a while. He looked at me then kissed my muzzle again.
"I love you." Shadow said softly.
"I love you too." I responded with a small smile.
