Lost In My Mind

Safe And Sound

I was still crying but by this point I wrapped my arms around Marcus. My mind had begun to drift back to my past. My parents leaving me and me living by myself for all these years, my last boyfriend pushing me around treating me like I was nothing. Love was all I needed but it just wasn't ever there. But now that Marcus is here, I pushed him away when he had the only thing I needed. Of course it was my fault again...

I just wanted all these memories to vanish. Just leave me forever, but I know that will never happen. But maybe if I go with Marcus they could just disappear for a few moments. 

I had stopped crying and looked at Marcus. He had begun to wipe the tears from my face. 

"I'm sorry," I finally say, "this is all my fault." 

"No, none of this is your fault. I shouldn't have been pushing you away. But I'm here now that's what matters. Ok?" He answers looking at me with those brilliant eyes. 

"Ok." I reply finally smiling. I wrap my arms around him once more and hug him tightly. Never wanting to let go. 

He begins to stand up but is still holding on to my hand. 

"Cmon, we better get back home." He says.

"Yeah ok." I reply gripping his hand tightly.

We walk back and come to my car. 

"Where's your car?" I ask confused.

"I didn't bring one. I kinda ran all the way here. I guess the adrenaline kept pushing me to keep running until I found you." He said with a sheepish look. 

I look at him smiling. What a dork he is. A cute dork I might add. 

I pull him in again and hug him for as long as he would let me. He softly pushes me away and looks at me. I smile begins at the edge of his mouth. He puts his hands on my face, pulling me in slowly. I close my eyes and feel his soft lips press against mine. I put my arms around his neck and pull myself closer to him. At this point I can hear the fireworks going off in my head. I pull my head back and put my forehead against his, arms still around his neck. I can't believe I'm about to say it...

"I love you." I say quietly. 

"I love you too." He replies kissing me on the top of my head. 

This. This is what I have been waiting for my whole life. Someone who would truly take me in for who I was. Marcus truly did love me, and I guess I loved him too...