Falling For Mikhaela Janna Jeminea Lim

Chapter 18 : Denial

MIKHA'S POV

I remember how Aiah took care of me while I had a fever.

I remember flirti- damn it, is that even the right word to describe it?

I remember grabbing her to lay down with me and hugging her like my life depended on her.

At first, I thought it was just my hallucination, but when Gwen said na pumunta raw talaga si Aiah, it hit me that it wasn't a dream.

But I still don't remember what I did wrong to make her treatment towards me change.

Just like my friends said, I let Aiah and her friends into my life.

I don't know. She's not avoiding me, pero hindi n'ya ako masyadong kinukulit. Kinakausap pa rin naman n'ya ako, pero unlike before na kahit hindi ako magsalita, she keeps on talking to me.

"Baka matunaw." Gwen whispered to me and nudged my shoulder.

I looked at her, then back at Aiah.

We're having lunch right now, but she's not even sitting beside me, which I find weird because in the past two weeks, lagi s'yang nakadikit sa'kin.

Pero it's been two days since the fever thingy, hindi na s'ya tumabi sa'kin.

I can't tell if it's the sudden change in her behavior that's irritating me or the fact that I'm affected by it.

Hindi ko mapigilan mapabuntong-hinga, and I know they all noticed dahil sabay-sabay silang napatingin sa'kin.

I hate how she's invading my mind lately, I know it's not normal.

I gathered my stuff and excused myself.

I stood up, and without looking back, even though I could feel her intense gaze burning into the back of my head.

I hate this feeling-it's suffocating me.

How dare she introduce me to an energy she can't even maintain?

It sucks, knowing she's the first person I let into my life maliban kala Jhoanna.

We were already in the stage of getting to know each other-tinanong-tanong pa n'ya ako ng favorite color ko, my likes and dislikes-then she's gonna act like wala lang 'yon.

I even lent her my hoodie, and ayaw ko sa lahat 'yong may gumagamit ng personal stuff ko.

And she even came to my condo, which is my personal space.

We were just starting to be friends, pero tinapos na n'ya agad. That sucks.

It only adds to my reason na don't even trust someone.

I checked my wristwatch-may dalawang oras pa ako para ipahinga utak ko sa kakaisip.

Damn you, Maraiah Queen Arceta.

While walking to my favorite spot, napansin ko pa rin ang mga tingin sa'kin ng ibang students, which only added fuel to my irritation.

I got annoyed from the looks on their faces, kaya tinanggal ko 'yong salamin ko para maging blur itsura nila sa'kin.

At least now, I don't have to see their judgmental stares clearly.

Frustration surged through me, and I ran my hands through my hair, trying to calm the storm brewing inside my head.

Bakit ba ang big deal?

Why does it feel like everyone's watching me?

Dahil ba kala Aiah?