Bocchi the Unforgiven (A Bocchi the Rock AU)

Chapter eleven - Failure

The officer drove me back to my family's apartment that day. I couldn't even explain to them what happened so the officer did it for me. I, on the other hand, had gone straight to my room.

I lied down in my bed, weeping on my side. My mind went blank again, I couldn't even think about a single thought at this point, only silence.

Yet soon enough thought started to run through my head again, it felt like a headache.

Will Kita die? Was her wounds that fatal? No, the knife ran straight through her back! How deep was it though? Was it slightly deep in or less deep in?

A scenario appeared in my head on how Kita dies from her wounds and I'm all lonely now. I was constantly lonely until I became an alcoholic and dying before I even graduated from High School.

More scenarios came into my head until I had just pushed them out of the way, but my head was still filled with anxiety and hopelessness as I rolled in my bed.

I can't just lie in wait right now as everything goes down. But what else could I do? There's nothing else I am able to do now.

Hours passed of me lying in bed and scrolling on my phone of hopelessness. I just didn't know what to do anymore.

I looked up about stab wounds and how they can impact you. But I'm not sure if Google Chrome was lying to me or not.

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Days passed by and I still felt depressed, my family tried to cheer me up a bit but nothing worked.

Soon enough I got a call off from the hospital about Kita's current state, which brought some joy in me.

I drove over to the local hospital to check on her, I signed in and headed up the elevator, dreading what I was going to see next.

I entered the hospital room as led by the nurse. In the room I saw Kita, bandages and a gown on her.

Her red long hair was down, seeing her like this broke my heart. Cords and heart monitors were tied to her too.

"She's in a coma." Said the nurse, "We don't know when she'll wake up or not."

This brought sorrow to me, "I can't believe it." I told her.

The nurse nodded slowly, "You can stay with her for sometime."

I sat down on the bed and reached out for her unbroken hand. Looking down at her solemnly.

Just seeing Kita like this made tears want to come out of my eyes, but I had to hold them in.

Please.. please don't die. I don't want to lose anyone else now.

I got up and was about to leave the room, until the nurse said something.

"Before you go honey." She said, "Take the hospital's number, we'll be able to give you updates from there." I nodded and grabbed the paper that had the number, and then I bowed and left.

While I was walking towards the elevator, I could feel tears in my eyes, I tried to wipe them away.

No don't cry.. not here. It's too embarrassing. I can't let anyone see.

When I got back into my car that's when I wanted to let all my tears out. But I just couldn't, all I did was put my head down on the steering wheel.

I didn't feel like going back home, I felt incomplete. I only had a small shimmer of hope left inside of me.

Where else is there to go? I don't like going out that much anyways.. I much rather stay in.

But then I thought of that place, Starry, the live club. That's where the Kessoku Band used to always meet. We would preform here a lot.