𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐆𝐎𝐓 𝐀𝐖𝐀𝐘, peter parker

CHAPTER 61

"'CAUSE AFTER ALL THIS TIME IM STILL INTO YOU."

IN THE SMALL BOX labelled 'If I go' there were quite a few videos.

One was specifically marked with Peter's name on it, and a green line that Peter took to be a symbol to indicate it was the first video.

He stared at the CD for three days.

He stayed on his couch without moving and simply stared at the CD in the dark. It took three days and exactly four hours for him to get up the courage to even graze the CD with his fingers.

He fumbled with the CD for what seemed like forever, it was only a few minutes in reality, but it felt like much longer to him. His vision was basically impaired by the tears resting in his eyes, and his hands were shaking.

The video started to play on his computer. Peter instantly froze.

He saw Andie's face looking back at him. The distinct hazel eyes Peter had fallen in love with not so long ago. How did so much change in one year?

Peter gasped with a shaky voice, grabbing his mouth. "Oh my god." he mumbled, immediately starting to cry.

He already felt overwhelmed, and he was too slow to pause the video.

And, so suddenly, he heard Andie Rosiers voice for the first time in a month.

"Hi Petey." she sighed as the video started. Peter started to sob, grabbing his sweater he had swiped from her room. He placed the hoodie and put it over his head, it was his so it fit, but it still smelt like her.

Holy shit, did he ever miss her.

The video continued, as Peter continued to wail. "If you are seeing this video, it means that I either . . . y'know, died. Or I decided to show you this, which is super embarrassing. We better be at least married, for fucks sake." she rambled, chuckling at herself.

Her laugh. That might've been what Peter had missed the most.

"What was I talking about?" she whispered to herself. "This is going so great, fuck." she sarcastically chortled.

Peter let out another sob. Andie continued, "I made these videos a little bit after I found out that you were Spider — man, I have full trust and confidence in you but it's kinda scary. I worry about you, love, being Spidey is really dangerous, and I would never ask you to quit but i'm still scared for you. A lot, actually." she explained.

A part of him wished he had seen this video much earlier, he would've listened. He would do anything to go back in time and change his most recent decisions.

He wished he had just one more day with her. Even if they spent the day screaming at each other, even if they spent the day crying and throwing shit. It still would have been one more day. He would do anything to see her again face — to — face.

If he could do it all over again, he would. All of the ups and downs, he would redo it all.

He would love her stronger, it was borderline impossible for Peter to love Andie anymore, but he would.

"I need you to do me a favour. I need you to help my mom out, i'm not saying financially — that would be crazy. I've had to put up with that before, it sucks. Anyways, I just need you to check up on her." ... that would be harder for Peter than expected. Cléa had no idea who Peter was.

Actually, that might make it easier. Cléa fucking hated Peter. "She's probably going to get really depressed like usual, but i'd hope she at least goes to my grave every once in a while, so if you see her I just . . . Can you tell her that i'm happier dead, or that I love her, or something? I know you will. Thank you Petey, I love you."

"Not to sound totally emo here, but I do think i'd be happier dead. I'd probably be much calmer than i've ever felt. Eternal calmness sounds great, actually, and an eternal nap is my dream in life." she went on.

An awkward chuckle left her lips, "Just see how she's doing, okay? Thank you, my love. See you lat — or, I guess you won't. I'm dead, heh. Okay, bye — bye, I love you so much."

And that concluded video one out of two. There was one video left, one video until Peter heard the last words intended for him.

Peter started thinking about his fallen love, his Andie. She was selfless, both of her last requests were about her mother.

She just wanted to know that Cléa would be taken care of. Cléa genuinely had nobody, and Andie had always felt bad about that.

Peter just wanted to love Andie, not for her to destroy him.

And she did destroy him. She destroyed his heart, it didn't hurt necessarily. Hurt was too small of a word, too insignificant. It didn't hurt Peter, no. It destroyed him, his heart. It obliterated, demolished, shattered his heart.

In a way, she broke him. She may have repaired his heart countless times, but this time it was unfixable. He was broken. Possibly forever.

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yall the snow banks in front of my house are legit as tall as me and it WONT STOP SNOWING.
i shovelled for four hours today im gonna end it all it literally has been nonstop snowing for 24 hours