Echoes of pain: Sura

Echoes of pain: Regret

12:15PM
LAKE CREST, ALASIA

   I stared blankly, my mind consumed by memories of her tears, her struggles. Her scent lingered hauntly in my mind, a bittersweet reminder of what I'd lost, Ares' voice cut through my haze, but I didn't respond.

Ive never notice the scratch in the middle of the book shelf before, nor how intricately designed the covers of the top history book was.

My eyes felt heavy, weighed down by the guilt and self hate within me.

She's gone, she told me she'd leave but I never thought it possible, I thought surely I could control my own mate.

But it wasn't control, it was my sick incessant need to take what I want from her and then mated another she wolf.

"You pushed her away! You hurt her! You hurt our mate and now she's gone!." my wolf, kua, growled breaking me from my self blame.

I felt him pacing.

"Fuck Kua I never meant to hurt her. I...I didn't" I sighed feeling defeated because I did hurt her and now she's gone.

I didn't think I was hurting her. But I knew kua didn't want to hear my lies. He was loud and violent in my head when I fucked sura.

Both times he growl and wanted to force shift, he never agreed with my treatment of our mate. He hated Alina and I ever so arrogant thought I could have all my hearts desire.

Moon goddess please send her home, I was wrong. I deserve your wrath bu....

"Vesserion! Vesserion!"

Ares yelled snapping me back to reality.

"What? Can't I get a fucking moment to myself" I growled, my eyes narrowing at Ares.

"You're distracted man," he sighed, concern etched on his face. "I know it's hard to lose a pack member, especially one like Sura, but it's no excuse to neglect your alpha duties."

My anger flared as I saw red at the mention of her name. I lunged at Ares, pinning him by the throat. "Don't say her fucking name?" I snarled, my dominance forcing him to submit.

Ares apologized, "I'm sorry, what the fuck man," he said raising his hand in surrender.

He sighed his hands still raised "We've been friends since we were pups. I know you, man. I know this isn't just about losing a member. Talk to me. What's going on?"

I turned away, and shame and guilt racked me, what would my childhood friend, beta, and trusted advisor think of me when he found out about my disgusting treatment of Sura?

I know he's fond of her, I mean who isn't what will he say when he finds out I forced my mate to give me her maidenhood?

"Vesserion?" he saw I was distracted again, kua howled at the thought of being abandoned by another person, and with a heated glare and my voice cold I hissed "Get out."

Ares sighed heavily and then left, slamming the door behind him.

My wolf paces the walls of my mind as he has been doing for the week, howling and scratching in my mind, longing for our mate. The constant growling and urge to force-shift had left me sleep-deprived and agitated.

Sighing for the thousandth time today feeling tired and frustrated I get up from my office and leave the pack house's confines. I couldn't risk letting my wolf out because I wasn't sure he'd allow me back control.

I walked into the clearing by the great lake, the cold air biting at my exposed skin, a stark contrast to the turmoil within.

Kua whimpered, making me look to the clearing I'd chase sura and take her maiden head. God she would have given it to me had I just been a good mate, yet I told her dreams were ridiculous and I'd keep her chain to my bed if I needed to.

The urge to shift shook me causing my body to almost convulsed, forcing my bones to stay as they are was the one of the most painful things I've never experienced.

I heard sniffling causing me to scanned the area behind me, my eyes taking in the group before me, Alexei, Anya, and Katherine.

"Fucking great" I thought bitterly.

I felt like a rabid dog seeing Alex's glare and clenched hands. I knew my presence irritated him.

Anya and Kat, stood behind him as he turned away from the lake to glare at me, his expressions a mix of anger, pain, and sadness. The girls turned their gaze from the lake towards us going still immediately.

"They're uncomfortable" Kua assessed "I don't care, ask them again of our mate" he, snarled, ceasing his pacing.

I approached the group, my eyes fixed on Alex, as Sura had been unnaturally close to him. If I wasn't so sure of her maidenhood id have accused him of fucking her. "Has she contacted you?" I asked my voice firm but controlled.

Alex's glare was unmistakable, his jaw clenched as he bit back his anger, his tone forced into politeness. "No, Alpha. She hasn't reached out to me."

Anya and Kat exchanged nervous glances, their voices laced with caution. "Alpha, we've told you everything, All sura left us was her wreath," Anya said however her nervousness made me want to force her to talk.

I however ignored her attempt to pacify me, my seething glare remained on Alex. "You were close to her, Alexei. Did she confide in you before she left?"

Alex's jaw clenched as he felt my alpha compulsion and disdain towards him, his words measured and taunting. "She wanted to tell me something about why Alina attacked her. But She didn't get the chance."

My body went ridged as I remembered what happened to cause Alina to attack her, my mind took me back and for the first time the cold felt suffocating, it clung to me like plastic.

"I'm guessing you don't need me to tell you what i think she was gonna tell me" He growled out.

My gaze shifted back to his disrespectful one, clenched fists, suddenly the urge to see his lifeless eyes filled me but she'd never forgive me.

My wolf growled, sensing Alex's suppressed anger. I took a step closer, my dominance asserted, ignoring completely what he was implying. "If you hear from her, you will inform me immediately."

Alex's eyes flashed, but he nodded, his voice strained. "Yes, Alpha."

I stared at him and he stared back with his eyes lower, my rage felt untamable. She wanted him, I saw it the night he held her standing before her door. His lingered fucking touches on her arms.

She was naive but she knew Alexei was a good match for her, I see it in her chocolate gaze, the way she clung to him in times of trouble, he was her haven and I was the monster she ran away from home to escape.

Kua howled a painful sound spinning around in my mind in despair before retreating to the far corners of my mind blocking contact.

The air was thick with tension as I turned snd swiftly leave. My pack's fear and unease hung like a cloud, a constant reminder of my volatility. But I couldn't rein it in, not when my mate was gone, and my heart beat painfully every moment she was away from me..

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1.Do you think vesserion should be forgiven?

2. Do you think sura should have another love interest?

3.What do you think of Kua?

Aww Alexei ever the sweetheart, defending sura even against his alpha🥺🫶...

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