Life is Just A Dream [CH fanfic]

Just go I know you dont wanna be here

His eye were filled with rage and anger. It looked like he was about to explode.

"Did you not fucking hear me, I said what the FUCK are you doing here!" He yelled. I was scared to answer. I could tell that one little wrong word would set him off. "Hey calm down okay, she didn't have no where to go so she came here, she just wanted to talk about some stuff." Said Luke calmly.

"DONT TELL ME TO FUCKING CALM DOWN WHEN I BEEN FUCKING WORRIED ABOUT HER FOR ALMOST 2 FUCKING HOURS NOT KNOW WHERE THE HELL SHE WENT!" He yelled becoming even more angry.

I stayed silent not knowing what to do. "Well maybe she wouldn't be here and you wouldn't be worried about her if you would have just told her when you were going on tour when you found out instead of telling her that you were going to leave for eight months in a week!" Yelled Luke back at Calum.

"UGHH!! I DIDN'T WANT TO TELL HER BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO BREAK HER FUCKING HEART." He yelled in frustration

"How would you have broken my heart Calum, How. I wouldn't have gotten mad at you if you would have just told me when you found out you were leaving for tour, I would have been happy for you. I would have wanted to make your last month with me and everyone else the best month you've ever had. Im only mad now because I feel like you didn't want to tell me you were going to leave, like you just wanted to leave without saying goodbye, or you were just waiting for the right time to make me break down a cry. So tell me Calum how would you have broken my heart if you told me when you found out that you were leaving for tour, because right now my heart is breaking from you not wanting to tell me in the first place." I said as tears rapidly rolled down my face.

It was silent for a while, the only thing that was making noise was my tears hitting the floor and Calums heavy breathing. Calum finally spoke after a good minute.

"I didn't want to tell you because I would miss you so much while on tour and I wouldn't be able to handle seeing your face when I left. I just thought that maybe it would have been better if we went our separate ways for you wouldn't be so alone while I was on tour and you would be with someone better that wouldn't break your heart every damn day and wouldn't leave you, because im that type of person Esme, that breaks your heart and leaves you, so please stop crying cause its breaking my heart seeing you cry when I know I cant go and hold you and tell you that its going to be okay cause its not so please go and look for someone better than me that will hold you and tell you everythings going to be okay. " He said with teary eyes and in a lower quiet voice that made my heart break into a million pieces.

More tears rapidly fell down my face and no matter how much I tried to calm down and show no weakness I just could handle the words that Calum had spoken. He just broke my heart in ways that I though nobody could.

Luke was looking at me with apologetic eyes and Calum was looking at me while a few tears rolled down his cheeks. Unlike me, I was crying so much and my heart was beating rapidly. Im not gonna go and look for someone else because there is nobody else, Calum is the one who makes me smile everyday, he is the one who loves me and cares about me, he is the one that I love and the one that I care for. He makes me feel like that there are no worries in the world when Im with him. It feels like time stops everytime he kisses me like nothing else matters, so no. Im not gonna go and look for someone else. Hes crazy to even think that there is somebody better than him cause theres not.

I stared at him for a couple seconds before speaking. "No, im not gonna go look for someone else that can make me happy because there is no one else that can, your that one that makes me happy and makes me feel like there is nothing to worry about when im with you Calum, I love you." I said with a shaky and cracky voice while tears continued to roll down my cheeks.