Pretend Suicide

Thought it was over? THINK AGAIN EK!!!

Winter break passed. 

It was fun having two weeks off school. But most importantly, it was fun getting past the bullshit that happened.

I was scared to go to school. But I couldn't miss anymore days of school. I already had my fun ditching classes during my junior year. I can't fuck up my progress during senior year. So I had to suck it up and go to school.

I was stressed out worried that Xeo was gonna start his bullshit again. I tried to avoid him and his friend Gozi as much as possible. He ended up finding me during lunch breaks and to my surprise, he didn't act out.

Instead, he would ask me if I could talk to him. He said he wanted to tell me something important. And so I went up to him and was trying to get his attention. But he was ignoring me and was talking to his friends.

So I told myself, I'll just let him finish and try again later if he comes to me. A few minutes later, he told me he wanted to talk to me...

Ignore me...again...I loved that you fucking prick-

I think he did it three times, but in the end, I told him to fuck off. I wasn't gonna keep falling for this shit. I said to him, "if you're gonna keep asking me to talk to you, and then act like I'm not fucking here? I'm not playing your dumbass games so fuck you!"

I left him alone, and everytime he told me to come over, I ignored him. Then, one of his ex-girlfriends came up to me. 

TRIGGER WARNING!! 

the ex girlfriend was COVERED!!  At that point, where's the skin? It was so bad, and I can't even blame her. But I was so concerned and worried for her. She gave me a warning about Xeo. She told me how he would try to make you look psychotic and crazy insane.

He used to have her chase him and Gozi around the school because he told her how they wanted to talk to her alone. She didn't tell me a lot, but I can only assume he's probably tried to do other stuff to her that made her hurt herself.

I hugged her close, cause I felt so bad. I let out a few tears, but had to toughen up. It pissed me off that he's managed to do this to others and cause damage. 

I managed to ignore him through most of the half of the year. Unfortunately his friend Gozi was still on my ass. And somehow, they knew I had a crush on this one kid named Keith. I wanted to go to prom with him, but he said no sadly. He was in my second period class. Gozi knew, and he kept telling me how "nobody would ever like me. Not even Keith would like me. I was always gonna be alone."

And he kept repeating that a lot. Honestly he was right, but with Keith. I think he was interested in "other people" wink wink. I can't fully say for sure, but whether or not, I feel he would've been accepting towards LGBT+. Hear me out, he was near the library door. He and his friends would talk to this one hall monitor worker.

And this one day, I saw a pride supporting board on the wall. I didn't have a pride flag to wave, so I sorta just ripped one of the flags off the wall and waved it around. I took the pansexual one off the wall. And another gay friend did the same. And then he saw me with the flag, and he had his group of friends walk up to me.

Not only that, but he stood NEXT to me. 

"EK really? He could've just did that cause he wanted to or something." That could be true. It's just funny that out of all the times, he chose to do it when I wave a pansexual flag around the air. KEITH DO YOU GOT SOMETHING TO SAY? IS THAT WHY YOU DENIED ME WHEN I ASKED ABOUT PROM?! 

Just kiddinnnggggg 

Unless... 👀👀👀