The lost love's return | Winrina

Ninth

KARINA

"What's with going on with you and Winter? Bakit palagi kayong mag-kasama?" Giselle asked while we're waiting for our coach. I froze I turned to look at her and she wasn't the only one waiting for an answer but also Ningning.

"Uhm... We're friends." I said. That was the truth but it felt like a lie. "Really? Kasi hindi kayo mukhang friends lang, kung hindi namin kayo kilala, we'd really think na you guys are a couple." Ningning said and as I heard that, a smile creeped up to my face but I immediately noticed it, but, it was too late they're both smiling at me too.

"Wow, I've seen that smile on my friends before. Do you like her?" Giselle asked me. "Huh?" I responded and they remained silent, alam nilang narinig ko ang tanong at alam nilang sasagutin ko ito kaya hindi na sila muling nagsalita.

I stood there looking stupid, I looked back and saw Winter, she had her earphones on, and was just scrolling through her phone, wala siyang klase ngayon at puwede na rin siyang umuwi but she didn't want to, she said wanted to wait for me and so she did.

I just looked at her, what do I say? Do I like her or not? I am in my denial stage. But who am I kidding? Lolokohin ko lang ang sarili ko kung sasabihin kong hindi ko siya gusto. I gulped, I turned to look at Ningning and Giselle, they're now looking on the other way, nawala na ang attention nila sakin but I still spoke.

"Mhm, I do like her, I do like Winter."

Giselle and Ningning slowly turned their heads towards me. "Please don't tell her..." I said. They both smiled and pulled me to the bench where we all sat and started talking to each other. I looked at Winter and she was still focused on her phone.

"See! Sabi ko na eh, I could really feel, iba talaga yung vibes when I see the both of you together!" Giselle said and smiled. "True! Napaka-sweet niyo kaya sa isa't isa!" Ningning responded. I then started feeling nervous.

"What if... Ako lang yung may nararamdaman?" I asked them. They both remained silent. I would understand if I was the only one who feel like this but... Wouldn't it be too painful knowing the person who have treated you so good and acted like she loves you doesn't actually feel the same way towards you?

Hindi ko alam, mas lalo lang akong natakot, I shouldn't be thinking like this dahil hindi pa rin naman ako sigurado kung meron ba talaga siyang nararamdaman para saakin. But I still couldn't help but be worried and nervous. Kasi paano nga kung ako lang talaga ang nagkakagusto at nagmamahal?

"Alam mo, hindi naman talaga natin yan maiiwasan eh. I mean, we couldn't force someone to choose us, if we get rejected it's fine, it may hurt, but it'll be fine, kung mareject ka man, accept it, wala namang mawawala sayo eh." Giselle said. "But, hindi mo rin dapat siya pinapangunahan, kasi you don't know about her feelings naman eh, you don't know how she truly feels towards you. Malay mo she likes you just as much as you do." She added and smiled.

"Wow! That's the first time I've heard you say something like that! Kasi kung hindi pambubwisit, pangjujudge ang naririnig ko!" Ningning said and we both laughed, Giselle rolled her eyes off her. "Sinisira mo ang mood ko." She said and we both continued laughing while Giselle sulked.

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We were on our way home, Winter kept telling me about something that I couldn't quite understand because I was looking at her, she was driving so carefully and so smoothly. I was just looking at her and smiling like a fool. She turned to look at me and smiled back after she stopped talking.

"Yes? What's going on?" She asked and smiled. I let out a chuckle for some reason, Hindi ko maintindihan ang nangyayari saakin, saamin, noong marinig niya ang pag-tawa ko ay natawa nalang din siya.

"No, nothing's going on, may iniisip lang." Sagot ko. "Hmm... Care to share?" She asked but I immediately responded, "No." I said, she raised her eyebrows looking so confused. "I-it's... It's not that important, I'll tell you when I'm ready ha?" I said. Napalitan naman ng ngiti ang nagtatakang itsura niya.

"Okay, Alam mo namang I'll wait and listen carefully eh, just tell me when you're ready." She said and I nodded. She continued driving until eventually, wr arrived at our street. She stopped infront of my house, I peeked and saw that my Mother opened the blinds and was looking at us but I shrugged it off.

"Thank you, I'll see you tomorrow?" I said to her and she nodded. I got out of her car and waved goodbye before she drove off for a bit and parked her car infront of her house. I gently opened the door and greeted my mother with a smiled but she was looking at me emotionless.

"Good afternoon, Mommy." I said. "What's going on with you and that girl?" She asked. I froze, I could feel my heart beating faster like it was a drum, my knees shaking, and my sweat starting to form on my forehead. I took a deep sigh and answered.

"We are just friends, Mommy." I answered, hoping that she would believe me. "Make sure." My mother said and I nodded. I slowly walked towards my room thinking about that small conversation.

I locked myself in my bedroom for the rest of the night. I thought to myself, magiging malaking sagabal ba ang mga magulang namin sa kung ano ang pwedeng mangyari saamin ni Winter?

I don't want my mother and my father to be the reason why I lose Winter, Losing her means losing myself. This is the first time that I have ever felt this feeling and I don't know if I could still find someone like her. But, as of now, I'm still not sure... Will everything change? Will this just make everything worse?

Ayoko, ayokong maging pangit ang kalabasan nito, I wanted this to last forever, I wanted to be inlove forever. I didn't want anything or anyone ruining this for me.