Destiny of hopes

chapter 10...

I came back and sat in the class with a twirling mind. How sick can I be? Was that even me? Am I that confident?

My mind is running in thoughts of what all just happened. I just said it loud to him and that princess just grasped.

I focused on our class

Days passed and time was flying too soon many a times we met at the stairs hiding from everyone's stares. Heyy this so poetic.

Everyone got to know about us eventually as the person whom no one has even seen smiling in class is giggling like a phool (flower) now a days all the time

I wrote poems about him. On the first day of our late night class after we finished solving the sample paper I was free. So I wrote a poem for the first time.

It was about myself. I'm just so obsessed with my shelf. Then I wrote one about his and mine current situation.

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We met on the stairs
hiding from everyone's stares
I held your hand and looked in your eyes
All I saw was the love for which my heart dies .

On the second story I wishpered in your ears
I love you for years and more of years
Even if there will be blood and tears
I'll never leave your hand when time gets fierce.

The look in your eyes and the voice that echoes
I want to dance on the rhythm of all the tunes
As my heart is finally feeling at home
After a long time living in war zone.

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I wrote it but it's hard to accept that I just gave commitment to a boy I just met trusting he won't break my heart.

But sometimes I tried to end it all to make it look like I was cheating on him, to make it all up that it was a dare or anything but I just can't get out of it somehow.

I'm fighting wars in my head but my mouth can't even utter a verse. I was fighting, fighting with myself and my feelings and emotions.

I took up the blade to ease my pain many a time in between without anyone's knowledge. I punched the walls in frustration till my hands felt like they were no more, I pulled my hair and cried silently on the bathroom floor but nothing worked as like it did before

December had arrived and our exams were already gone. We even had a feast on this 12th but no one had fun there.
So we are having another feast tomorrow on 25th of December, 2021. It's a Christmas feast.

We all were laying on beds by joining four beds together. There I don't know from where we got a idea to write down our wishes in a piece of paper and burn it down. The one whose paper gets totally burned, her wish gets fully fulfilled.

So we did it but as my short term memory is too short I actually forgot what I wrote while the paper burned fully in one go.

I don't trust this shit but sometimes we do somethings without reason because they are simply fun and we were bored.

We had a camera so we played Santa Santa and captured it in it. In these days I have gotten close with many people even the people I wrote about in the reasons. Everyone has their past and their reasons and no one is fully bad or good either.

This morning it was a total hustle. We all got ready and moved towards the feast area. We sat on our seats as the dare game began.

I was the second one to go. I picked a chit up and It was written to dance on dola re dola re song. Shit bro I'm fucked.

I hesitated but then eventually danced weirdly. I don't do dance and all I'm too shy shy person.

After just the game was over we all were dancing like maniacs on item songs. Okk I change my words. If the song is good I can't control myself.