43. Stay or Leave...

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I came back home, and then i couldn't think or do anything

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I came back home, and then i couldn't think or do anything.. Seeing my confused thoughts, bang pd gave me time to think about it, as i had still time left for my visa.. I needed time to think.. I think i didn't got enough time to think about anything these past few days..

Things were happening really fast, than i thought it would... jungkook was all of a sudden in my life, and then he asked me to stay with him, which is impossible but happened.. And then i was lost in him.. I never got to think.. I never got to calm down and understand my situation or anything to be honest.. And i needed time to think.. Can i live like this with him??? Staying at home, and hiding forever..

As i came back home, jungkook wasn't there yet.. So i showered, and decided to calm myself down a little bit.. To understand what is happening.. I am all just emotions and feelings and love with him for past few days.. I really have any idea of what is happening.. If anyone asks me anything, i can't remember anything, bcz i am just so out of tune with reality.. I am just in love.. But i have to be conscious..

Not bcz being madly in love is bad, but rather, the person i love isn't a normal person... maybe this stage would have lasted for 3 months, if he was a normal guy.. And i did wanted it to last longer, if possible all the time.. But.. this isn't possible.. I have to decide on my life..

I showered, got ready, and then decided to cook something... i made palak chicken and rajma and rice.. Bcz i wanted to feel like i was home.. I wanted to feel like my mom was with me.. I couldn't even tell my mom my problems.. Bcz she was away from me, and i didn't wanted to give her stress.. I couldn't tell her about the things i was going through.. If i get the job, and decide to stay, then i will tell her, that the job profile and money is more here, so i am deciding to live.. I know she will understand, bcz she knew how much i wanted to come here..

I searched for the recipes on youtube, and ordered the stuff i needed to cook them... thankfully in korea delivery takes only 30 minutes max... so they quickly delivered things, and the guard brought the staff for me.. And then i prepared the food.. And i called him..

Jungkook- hello???

Yn- where are you???

Jungkook- just leaving the building..

Yn sighed- come back quickly.. I miss you..

Jungkook chuckled- don't stay like that..

Yn- why???

Jungkook sighed- you sound so cute, that i might eat you alive..

Yn chuckled- wow.. So funny...

Jungkook smiled- you know i miss you too right??? I will be home in 10 minutes..

Yn- i cooked..

Jungkook gasped- what???

Yn sighed- don't worry.. I know how to cook.. And i cooked indian food.. So it will not be bad..

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