Love At First Flight | Buddie + FireFly

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~Buck's POV~

After Eddie left my heart with him I left the kitchen and went back to the room we shared. My vision was blurry as I felt myself crying. Yet I wiped them away to focus on packing. Later when all my clothes and toothbrush was packed I left the room. Walking down the stairs I stopped at the end of the stairs looking around not seeing Eddie. Walking outside I saw near the garage they had it set up like a gym. Eddie was punching the bag that hung. I felt like he was punching my heart with each hit. I got my phone out and ordered a Lyft.

The Lyft took me to the airport and there I felt at home. I didn't have a home back in LA when I didn't work. Yet being flight attendant the airport always felt like home. I never had that feeling of being home with a person either.

I got a coffee and some actual food since all I had earlier was the bell pepper. When I was walking past a magazine cart I saw it. I picked it up quickly three photos. One of Eddie and I in the water, another Eddie and I kissing on a towel and the last one Eddie and I running butt naked all from the paparazzi. The caption read 'Summer Gay? Who is Eddie Diaz gay awakening?' I put the magazine back and smiled at the worker as they didn't seem to notice it was me.

I looked online to see what flights were available for LA. After one booked I went through TSA, even as a worker we had to go through TSA every shift. Yet I wasn't working so didn't bring out my badge.

Sitting at the gate I ran my hands through my hair. I hugged my carry on and closed my eyes and didn't realize I fell asleep. I got woken up by someone shaking my arm.
"Mmhm five more minutes Eddie."
I mumbled still wanting to sleep.
"Eddie? Hun this is Hen."
I opened my eyes quickly and sat up and saw Hen in her flight attendant uniform.
"Oh hey Hen? Where ..?"
"You coming back to LA we gotta head out and waiting for you."
"Yeah right."
I stood up and she took my carry on for me and we walked into the plane. I had first class and was the first row.

Once in the air I rested my head on the window sighing. No one sat next to me thankful but then heard someone did.
"Buck? You want to talk about it?"
Looking over at Hen made me cry and I hugged her as she hugged me back. So she was the first I told everything to. I mean everything I didn't leave anything out.
"So you are saying your heart belongs to two?"
I mumbled a thanks when she gave me a tissue. I nodded.
"I uh guess so. Tommy is older but experienced and likes being out with me. And Eddie is my age but he is reserved but likes being with me in private."
Hen smiled listening as she nods.
"Well when I first got with Karen we were the same way. Being lesbians and black wasn't the best thing back in college. But slowly we got to be out and loud. Everyone is different too though. But are you okay with say Tommy never wanting to be quiet about you guys or Eddie never wanting to be loud about you guys?"
I ran my hands through my hair nodding.
"Yeah.. it just sucks Eddie literally pushed me out of there."
"Maybe he'll come around. He's figuring out who he is and that's a scary step for anyone. Especially with his line of work."
"So you saying I should move on?"
The flight attendant helper dinged and she stood up.
"I'll be right back."
She left and I pulled my phone out texting Tommy. If Eddie wanted to move on so could I.
'Hey Hot Pilot I'll be in LA in two hours and want to see you. I want to take you on a date.'
It took only few seconds but got reply back from Tommy.
'With or without clothes?'
I laughed and looked around like someone could read my texts.
'We can start with clothes I want to take you out to dinner and then without as I want to be your dessert.'
He loved the message and sent back a text.
'Oh Evan you know a way to a man's heart. I'd love to go on date with you and have you as dessert. Especially those lips look good on the secret menu. I'll pick you up I'm going to hit the shower and then I'll be at the airport.'
I hearted the message and blushed as he complimented my lips. I touched them but remembered kissing Eddie. I put my hand down and put phone back away. Resting my head on the window I watched the clouds.

Hen got too busy and didn't come back to talk to me but once I got off the plane she hugged me again.
"I'll see you in two days when I'm off? We can go hit the gay bar and hang out there?"
I nodded as I slowly let go of the hug.
"Sure sounds perfect."

Walking out with my carry on and I went to the suitcases to get mine. When I found it I walked out and saw Tommy right away. He had a sign that said
'Evan'
making me laugh that he didn't do something funny like I've seen a lot over the years. Running up to him he smiled and kissed me as I kissed back. We got hunk and pulled apart laughing I put my bags in his car. He drove to a parking lot and I lifted my eyebrow and he kissed me again. My eyebrow with my birthmark went up as I kissed back.
"Wait Tommy we shouldn't."
"Mmmm Evan?"
"In a parking lot? What if someone sees or the security find us?"
"Isn't that the thrill of it Evan? Like picture it being front and center for camera." He kissed my neck and I gasped but not from his kiss. Sh t did he see the magazine?"
My shirt was off and he sat back taking his own shirt off.
"You lighter than me baby you want to get on my lap."
I nodded and he pulled his pants down as I did the same and taking them off I got onto his drivers side. We kissed again and I tried focusing on the kiss and his hands on my exposed skin. Yet all I could see was Eddie kissing me at the beach. I pulled away and Tommy followed but I put my hand on his chest to stop him.
"Evan?"
"Sorry I.. can we take a second?"
Tommy nodded and sat back in his seat and I sighed and rubbed my left eyebrow with my birthmark.
"What's wrong Evan? We can go back to my place if you really don't want to have sex in the car?"
"No it's not that it's just .. I.. we.. Eddie."
Tommy laughs and I look at him confused.
"Eddie? What he do now?"
"We .. kissed and had sex in his hot tub so that's why I didn't come to your ski trip."
Tommy frowned and I could see the hurt in his eyes as I saw it with Eddie when paparazzi found us.
"Oh? Well I assumed you were with him. You made it clear that night we all shared a bed you liked him too. I could see it even before we all got together."
"And you're not mad?"
"Of course not. I've been with plenty of guys and even at the ski I was with two guys at the same time again. It's normal to be with then more one person."
"Wait are you poly?"
Tommy shrugs and traces one of my tattoos on my chest as he looks at me.
"I'm flexible Evan. If I see someone I like we f k."
"So you like casual?"
Tommy nods.
"Yeah with being a pilot I can't settle. You as a flight attendant should know that. We can't do long term it's all casual."
Tommy leaned and kissed my tattoo that he just traced. I shivered but not from cold but was it turned on or saddens? Yes? I did want long term but with both guys I didn't know who I wanted more. I knew I couldn't be with both of them long term but did want to settle.
"So us is just a casual thing? You never want to be serious?"
Tommy stopped and looked at me shaking his head no.
"Evan I'm forty I don't think I'll ever settle. It's fun being with new people and if you settle you have to be tied down to one person. What's the fun in that? The tie is loose when you can be with anyone you want. When you want."
I got off his lap and went back to passenger seat and put on my pants and shirt.
"Evan?"
"I..I can't do that."
I put on my socks and shoes after my shoes was tied I got out of the car. I zipped my pants back up and opened the back door. Getting my two bags out I saw Tommy get out in only his boxers.
"Evan where are you going?"
"Tommy... look you are a great guy okay? But I can't do this casual anymore..I got to go home."
"Evan stop being a child and let's go have dinner and then back to my place."
I shook my head and walked away seeing bus stop. Once bus arrived I got in the bus and sat down.

The rain started as I sat in the bus. It stopped at the bus stop and had four minute walk back to my apartment. When I walked out of the elevator and to my door I saw I had lot of mail. I said to myself I'll get it later. Walking inside the lights didn't come on and I said to myself I'll pay the light bill later. Using my phone flashlight I walked up the stairs. Stripping off completely as my clothes were soaked. I didn't feel enough motivation to get dressed. I laid in my bed and didn't eat dinner. I fell asleep as I curled up I got the blanket.

Few days of staying in bed is all I did. I don't know how long I stayed but each time I heard the mailbox open and close I didn't care to get it. Eventually it must of got full as a light knock and then footsteps left. I stayed in my bed and not got up only for bathroom. Then I would go back to sleep and didn't use my phone. Didn't turn on my tv as I didn't pay the electric bill.

I fell back asleep today and with curtains closed I didn't tell what time it was. Yet I just felt sleepy all the time as no one cared to check on me. I too didn't care to check my phone to see what anyone was up to. I just stayed in bed and didn't want to get up.