A boy who feels everything

Sorry I couldn't forget you

I don't know what I'm doing anymore.. should I wait for you or just forget you.. will you never text again or should I leave every hopes behind and watch everything burn.. nothing had caused me this much pain before. Not until I met with your silence, your separation has killed my heart, my soul.. I'm now beyond repair, I never could fix myself or be good enough for you, and you left me like I was never anything to you. Did you even missed me? I missed you every time.. and each time I had died with your thoughts.. I wish I had cared less about you, I wish I had loved you less.. then I wouldn't feel this pain. Your thoughts never leave me alone. For a fucking year, I've been missing you even after knowing that I've lost you. I never admitted that we were over.. I wasn't done with you, for once put yourself in my place and feel the damage I've taken for you.. I loved you even after you left.. I waited for you in the unknown silence, I cried for many nights that you don't even know.. I just wanted to be with you, was it so wrong of me to just love you? I know I never deserved you but for some moments I felt like I did.. for a sheer moment everything was perfect in my life, now I'm just killing myself over and over again, just for someone I've already lost. Where are you? You had promised you'd talk to me.. why aren't you here yet.. what did I do to deserve this much pain.. I don't want to feel this hurting.. I just want your love