A boy who feels everything

I wonder if anyone wonders

I wonder if anyone wonders about me like who is this lonely guy? He's always lost in his mind.. what does he want? What does he needs? What does he likes? Where is he looking at? What song is he listening to? Well I know nobody gives a shit but he's a soft boy from the inside.. he listens to sad songs because he never relates with rainbows and butterflies, ofcourse he shows that nothing hurts him, he always have a long serious face with no ounce of smile and acts tough but when he's around friends, he gives shallow laughs and pretends that he's also tryna be cool but no it never works for him because he cannot be someone else.. he loves skies and beautiful flowers, his touch is gentle and he is always calm but on the inside his soul is breaking everyday, every minute there's a heavy weight on his shoulders and aches in his chest.. he doesn't let those tears flow because no one would catch his hand or hold him in arms even if he cries, he's always out there trying to find the deeper meaning of life.. he's always struggling with his feelings.. because he's just an average guy, He loves poetries and slow moments, nature and birds and fishes.. he's just a kid on the inside.. who's stuck in this sinful world where everyday is a neverending loop, his soul is tired and body is worn out.. but no one knows what burden he's been taking on.. because no body is there to ask.. nobody wants to know this normal guy who thinks he's not normal.. nobody even wants to try. He wants to live happily and he wants to love everything he gets.. even if it's pain.