A boy who feels everything

I should've moved on

I know I should've moved on by now.. but I really can't. It's painful to know that you don't even want to notice me.. or my words, after all that I've endured on my own when you left.. I still always wished for your arrival, I know we were the right person met at the wrong time when we couldn't do anything for eachother but my life was beautiful when you were mine.. and I wanted it remain that way, maybe that's why I can't move on or forget you because our memories of being together are more beautiful than this life.. and I've always prayed for your wellness while giving away my blessings.. I just wanted you to be happy and prosperous.. that's why I decided to let you go at first.. because your every concern used to my concern, your problems used to be my problems and your love was completely mine.. I miss it alot but I just wanna say that you were always my favourite, my favourite unkept promise, my favourite almost, my favourite maybe in different lifetime, my favourite what if, my favourite unfinished story and my favourite soulmate. I loved you more than anything and I still do.. I just wish maybe somewhere you still feel something for me.. otherwise I wouldn't have been waiting for this long, I should've been dead without you. I promise you'll never be haunted if something ever happens to me.. just wished that I could talk to you for once again.. it seems impossible nowadays, but I'll be remembering you always.. please don't forget me, it still hurts alot and I cannot bear this pain in my chest any longer. Hope you forgive me too, when I will leave this earth, it won't be the nature that I'll miss, it'll be you.. always has been you