A boy who feels everything

I thought you wouldn't

I thought you wouldn't forget me on my special day, I had the last ounce of hope and some expectations which has also ended now, no it doesn't mean I don't care about you anymore or I hate you for not wishing me on my birthday, you've just proved me wrong in many things. But even after all this, you never understood my feelings towards you. You never valued my true emotions. I remember when you used to say that I'll learn to live without you, I eventually did but I never could live without your memories. Still I can't but you won't even care to look back, to understand my pain. You were in pain, in your misery I was there but now I'm always miserable, I feel like dying.. I don't even wanna try with anybody else. I'm tired of waiting and hoping again and again, just to be shattered by the reality that you don't love me anymore.. you don't want me anymore.. you gave up on me and already has forgotten me, I was just another person who doesn't mean anything anymore. But why can't I do the same.. how could you betray my innocent heart. How could your seperation has ruined me completely.. you were never there when I needed you, you are just a coward who can't face your own feelings and I'm also a coward who can never make you feel it again.. but I cannot admit the fact that you're not coming back anymore. I still love you and I still want you.. I'm ready to accept you in any way you'd want me to. But you never will. You never will and I'm not strong enough to hate you or forget you. So I will always remember you.. even when my name will mean nothing to you. I won't bother you with my existence or my feelings anymore. Just let me know you're fine without me..