A boy who feels everything

You were never truly mine.

You are not mine and you were never mine then why the fuck i still hold you dearly in my heart, why the hell I desperately wanna be yours, why I'm ready to sacrifice anything for you while you don't even want anything of me.. you never really wanted me, you were just playing with me.. for you it may be a chapter but for me it was a book, why am I still suffering because i lost you, why am I still wanting to be yours when all you did was nothing but made a bunch of fake promises. It's completely and entirely my fault for loving you when you didn't loved me back, for waiting to be with you again when you never even wanna talk to me, it's my fault for wanting to be yours.. I'm wasting my time and energy to make you feel something but in the end I'll only be hurt again because you will never love me back but I do deserve more..i don't wanna be hurt by you again, I wish it was you who was left behind in this unknown void and i was the one who acted cold to leave you, just to be seperated from you.. i wish you were hurt like I was then you'd know how I felt, i don't know if I can trust anyone now.. i don't even know what I want anymore. You ruined my mind, you broke my heart and I want you to fix it.. you knew how much damaged I'd be but still you never cared enough to see me.. you never understood my love. I don't even know what to feel in my soul.. I just love you even after all this, i wish you had gone through what I had to.. I hope your heart breaks too