Protective unnies

Chapter 32. A life in private

I woke up to the sun shining directly into my face. I knew that I had forgotten to close the curtains last night. I rolled around and grabbed my phone to see what the clock was.

Jahoon: 1 p.m.? I never thought that I would ever sleep that much in... Well, it was kind of expected after all...

I got out of bed and cleaned myself up in the bathroom. After finishing the meeting yesterday, Jiwon unnie and I returned back to the dorm with our manager so that I could pack. I still remember the rest of the girls' confused faces when they saw me packing. How sad they were when they found out the reason. How Leeso unnie clung on to me since she didn't want me to leave. Luckily I managed to find a hotel room that I could stay in for a few days until I can find a permanent apartment to stay at. It is not like you can just find one in a matter of a few hours. While brushing my teeth, I heard my phone ringing. I picked it up to see it was Jiwon unnie. I even saw that I had gotten a few messages from the other girls but I just ignored all of them. Not only was I instructed to not contact them but also it will be for the better. if any of them finds out where I'm staying they will come and it will be even more dangerous for our group.

Jahoon: Before apartment hunting, I should get some food and maybe a new phone number... or maybe I should just block their numbers temporarily.

Eventually, I decided on the latter choice. I went outside and grabbed something to eat at a nearby café while hunting for an apartment. Looking for a decent apartment to sign the lease on was even harder than I expected it to be.

Minji: Fancy seeing you here.

I looked up from my laptop to see Minji unnie from Newjeans standing right in front of me. I met her in a variety show where we got partnered up together. Ever since then, we have hung out together and eventually became best friends with her. She was the first friend that I got outside of my own group. Minji unnie pulled out a chair and sat down right in front of me.

Jahoon: What are you doing around here? It's a little far away from the HYBE building.

Minji: Well I could ask you the same thing. I'm actually out here with Haerin. I'm just grabbing coffee for the both of us while she is in the bathroom. So~ back to you! Why are you here? I thought you guys had a schedule today?

Minji unnie tilted her head with confusion. I opened my mouth for a split second before closing it again. I was in a dilemma. I promised that I wasn't going to tell anyone about what happened but also... I needed someone to talk to. Someone who isn't a part of my own group.

Jahoon: Well... I'm not really allowed to join the rest of the girls in the schedules right now.

I gestured for Minji unnie to come closer since I was afraid of who was listening to us right now. We can't afford any more dirt on us right now. I told her in big details about what was happening. Just so she knew what was happening.

Minji: And he really kicked you out of the group like that? On one hand, we are idols after all but on the other hand, love is love! It shouldn't be the fact to do something like that.

Jahoon: I'm not kicked out of the group yet... But also it is a matter of time before I really get kicked out. But what could I do? I love her and started all of this so I should be the one bearing the consequences as well.

Minji: But still, it is unfair to you. How about telling people about this? Your fans would be on your side! Then you can continue to be in the group and be with the one that you love!

Jahoon: I appreciate you cheering me up like this but do you really think that is going to happen? We live and perform mostly in Korea where a lot of people still see same-sex relationships as a sin. I don't think that it would ever work... Unless I make a choice: either break up with Liz unnie and choose my career or choose Liz unnie over my career and find another job.