Love hits hard.

4 A plan and a new day.

Waking up in a new place always gives you a feeling of unease and excitement. Yeah, your a two headed coin alright, while you have your second coffee in the suite, trying to make your body adjust to the new time zone, you think back on the last few months.

"Cheers," your brothers all share some champagne. It's bitter sweet. You have all been working so much the last few months, and tonight, you gave a one night only performance for the fans.  It was under the guise of promoting your country, but really, it was a free bon voyage concert for the fans all around the globe. Tomorrow, the announcement drops, and there's nothing you can do about it, Except continue to work hard and show the fans that you really do appreciate each and every one of them. You almost lost it near the end. Over come with emotion, all the guys did. You're not one to show it too easy, but they all felt the same, so this time, there's no teasing. You sit with Jin and Nam and have a whisky. Letting out a sigh, "we did it," the emotions trickling down your face, and you don't bother wiping it away. The others are right there with you. All feeling the same, on different levels, and showing it in different ways. The kids are still bouncing when you get back to the hotel. Jimin and Jk especially, this is their home city. Both get to see their families and spend time with them. The others will take a few days and maybe visit their home towns. For you, it's back to work. There's an album to finish, music video plots to work out, you guys are also filming lots of content and you have your own show to film.

With the end of the year fast approaching and Jin Hyung now settling into his new life, you make a promise to yourself. Find some sort of happy. Its cruel of you to think you want to find someone, and then they will have to wait for you while you go to service, but you don't want to be alone anymore. You waited with him while  he shaved his head, that memory, it still hurts like a bitch.   You know that the time will come when you all will cut your hair, but seeing your brother do it. It felt wrong. Jin Hyung's parting words that night after talking about all sorts, "you don't want to wait too long Yoongi, what if you go to use your dick and it doesn't work".

You see the guys for dinner before Hoseok goes to New York. Dinner is a subdued affair. Everyone looking over the last year, and unsure of what the next one brings. The only thing for sure is that you will all enter service. Hoseok has been busy, attending awards and doing performances. But his Nuna is Due soon and once February hits, he's gonna be spending time with her. You wont say your jealous, he deserves this love. There was a time you had thought she could have been yours. It was never going to happen, not once you had spent time with her and seen she only had eyes for Hoseok. But it made you want to find someone. Hoseok and his Nuna, it took them time to find a balance, Jin Hyung, he found his happy too, not as much drama as Hoseok, but still an entertaining story. Even Nam, is finding his happy, well not the same kind of happy as the others. Nam, he's been going through a few things and finding his way. He's been busy with his promotions and his album and now that's over you hope he can relax a bit. The kids always seem happy and you don't wanna know what they get up to behind closed doors. 

As the days pass by and the finishing touches are done to the album, the exciting part. You get to share this with everyone. First its Nam and Hoseok. They understand your production style, the rap, how it can be built on layers. They understand you. A resounding thumbs up. The kids get their chance to hear it and give you lots of positive feedback and energy. Its Tae who will release after you and his sound is so different. It really is remarkable how seven different personalities, likes and styles all merge into one group. There's been no massive bust ups about who gets what part of the song, the lyrics or anything. We all know each other so well when it comes to our individual sounds, but as a group, its always for the fans.

There are still episodes to be filmed and other projects to complete, so junior has had to be happy with your solo attention for the last while. Fuck, how you miss the feel of someone else touching you. The NDAF folder comes t mind more often these days. But you keep pushing those thoughts away.